restraining order
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Posted:Dec 19, 2016 1:23 pm
Last Updated:May 17, 2024 2:59 pm
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so I attempted a relationship I had an affair the husband was off in rehab he had totaled his car off to California for a month for him a month without him for me it didn't end well the husband and the boyfriend called each other out because what woman wouldn't want two men fighting over her I don't have a whole lot of nice things to say about either one of these individuals
I stuck with the husband because the boyfriend turned out to be not such a nice guy spreading rumors first that I had herpes and now that I have syphilis which whatever he is angry and bitter I have heard myself referred to as some very unpleasant things I of course got myself checked twice because who doesn't appreciate a full gynecological work up including the speculum doctor says she doesn't see anything it's my legs in the stirrups and I'm messing with her what even is that different clinics different doctors same results I have a clean bill of health times two
I have a restraining order against the guy I had the affair with he wouldn't stop following me calling me and showing up at my home I met him on here and I have him blocked but apparently he is contacting various individuals to talk about me I mean I guess i should be flattered but I am more nauseous and extremely disappointed not so much by what he is saying but that he is believed I guess I fell for his line of description myself
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Herpes
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Posted:Jun 2, 2016 5:22 pm
Last Updated:Jul 4, 2016 8:26 am
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There's a guy on here spreading rumors that I have Herpies like I'm not going to go get checked out whatever all my stuff is clean to anyone who believed that bullshit fuck you I never wanted to sleep with you anyway to everyone else you're awesome and keep being you
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blessings
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Posted:Mar 29, 2015 5:21 pm
Last Updated:Jul 4, 2016 8:27 am
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blessed are the meek? the peacemakers? poor in spirit? pure of heart? they who morn? I did that and I didn't feel blessed I felt suppressed so I made my own list
blessed are those who go around in circles for they shall be called big wheelers
blessed are those who study for they shall gain knowledge
blessed are those who are curious for they shall have adventure
blessed are those who experience fantastic sex for they shall know what they have been missing
blessed are the forgetful
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carpenters don't lay carpet
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Posted:Feb 23, 2015 6:52 pm
Last Updated:Jul 4, 2016 8:27 am
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I may have upset one of the office ladies today she left her office and came down to my area today in my defense I had no idea it was her who planned the event when I asked her about the Mardi Gras party they have scheduled for Thursday first of all Mardi Gras was last Tuesday it literally means Tuesday fat it is a french word where the adjective comes after the noun it is a prelent party the day before Ash Wednesday and the beginning of lent where people gorge themselves on all the things that they will be denied the next 40 days to have this party now makes absolutely no sense so when I explained this to her she said 'I didn't know this and it is just a party' why would anyone have a party for something they didn't understand?
Lent is a time of fasting and prayer where one denies themselves in order to form a closer bond with God to have a party the second week in is no way to encourage those who are in the middle of fasting and prayer while I no longer participate in this ritual far be it from me or anyone else to interrupt another person's methods of meditation
carpenters don't lay carpet a girl I know was flirting with a fellow and when he told her he was a carpenter she told him she needed new carpet I explained to her that carpenters don't lay carpet that they frame houses
pinatas do not come with candy already inside them I went to a birthday party once they had one of these and the beat the thing pulled it apart and were extremely disappointed when there was nothing inside it
none of these women are stupid simply uninformed I don't know many men I few I have met from here mostly I was told that they are weak and subjective to their urges and that is why women shouldn't wear yoga pants in public
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what?
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Posted:Feb 9, 2015 4:04 pm
Last Updated:Feb 19, 2015 6:22 pm
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I read a lot cereal boxes, billboards, whatever I can get my eyes on I generally have a book with me wherever I go occasionally an eBook although I prefer the real thing with paper, sometimes an audio book but something gets lost in hearing a book over reading it. So the other day I found myself between books and out of WiFi land being able to adapt I picked up a magazine Elle? maybe? glossy pages full of clothes I might be able to afford a knock off version of in 10 years (The Devil Wears Prada) a little different experience smelling exotic perfumes instead of old paper they had a write up in there that I found interesting where they were talking to a group of women, at a conference or something who write romance stories, the article writer noticed a woman who fit all the typical things written to describe women in novels (slim, young, wearing clothes featured in that particular magazine, carrying a purse with a label that I will never be able to purchase) so she walked over and interviewed this woman this vision of perfection all women are striving to be? turns out as part of her research she signed up to this particular site, well good for her getting out there doing her research she even went so far as to attend a swingers party but then she essentially went on to say that the people on here are people that one doesn't want to see naked... what? how dare she? how dare they? I found it extremely rude mean arrogant and completely unnecessary I couldn't finish the article I closed the magazine set it back on the table and walked away. I think it might be time to go back to the library.
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parking
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Posted:Feb 1, 2015 4:15 pm
Last Updated:Feb 19, 2015 6:21 pm
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She pulled up behind the hotel making sure her vehicle was not visible from the highway she checked her face in the rear view mirror her make up while not flawless looked good better then she had hoped she once again hiked up the thigh highs that were simultaneously bagging at the ankles and rolling down the thighs she wondered fleetingly if she could make strips torn from the roll of spider-man duct-tape abandoned on the back seat be considered sexy as she stepped out onto the pavement
striding through the parking lot she paused only long enough to snag the key card off the windshield of the pickup in the front row she caught a flash of the wrap dress that fit her torso like a second skin showing off her cleavage while the drape and soft folds camouflaged her waist and hips black Betsy Johnson peep toe stilettos finished off the ensemble she recalled the going out of business sale that allowed her such extravagance and grinned at finally having an excuse to wear it
in the side door up the steps and down the hall to room 215
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6 years
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Posted:Jan 20, 2015 7:44 am
Last Updated:Dec 2, 2016 11:40 am
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it's been six long years since the death of my some days are better then others this ones not so good the pain the anger the sadness I'm still learning to deal the only good thing that came from the husband fucking around is it gave me a place to focus all that rage and finally let some of it go or redirect it anyway sure I made her life hell but why not she was fucking my husband I'll get over this and as soon as possible I will move on the only thing I am waiting for now is my to outgrow will intentioned misinformed grandparents it's my own damn fault I've covered for him so well and so completely that they still have no idea how deep his drinking problem is hell if I hadn't found his mistress I'd still be in denial of it myself ah well life goes on we live we learn some days I miss my rose colored glasses ignorance is bliss not acknowledging it meant I didn't have to deal with it I've told both his parents and mine but since I didn't say anything until after he had his affair I come off as a snarky jaded wife trying to get back at her husband he is very very sorry and it will never ever happen again I am to forgive and forget and return to the way things were before
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grateful it's January
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Posted:Jan 2, 2015 6:31 pm
Last Updated:Jul 4, 2016 8:32 am
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I went to alanon and therapy group therapy and couple therapy and family therapy it seems awful silly to pay someone just so I can talk to them sit and chat and have a good cry I can do that over coffee and it doesn't cost near as much whatever I kept an open mind and I went dragged the husband and the offspring too we all got to cry together it was fantastic ok it wasn't but we went
I always forget how much the holidays bother me it's like the Grinch and Scrooge and Satan Clause all team up to fuck with me I'm not sure what it is maybe it's all the charities asking for cash being the recipient of some of those charities at one time or another might have something to do with that receiving help when I didn't need or want it being denied help when I sucked up my pride and asked for it when it would have done the most good maybe it's too much family too many people in too short a time in too small a space perhaps it's being reminded every year that Jesus wasn't born in December Shepard's were keeping watch in the field so it would have been lambing season and everyone knows that lambing season is not in the middle of winter then being told he's the reason for the season like those two statements don't totally counteract each other maybe it's the screwed up logic Santa isn't real because he would have to go all around the world in one night and it just isn't possible but Jesus is real he can be in your heart and in the world and all around the world at the same time Santa doesn't really see you when you're sleeping but god can really be with you all the time and with everyone else at the same time maybe it's the whole gift thing I was always grateful I got a gift sure it was donated by some random person and dropped off by another random person but I got one and that was enough but it's never enough there is always something bigger or better or more that is just out of grasp and this particular season seems to point that out in technicolor
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Skillet
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Posted:Sep 4, 2014 8:29 pm
Last Updated:Jan 17, 2015 6:12 pm
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I saw a band
Out in the field
On muddy land
The grass did yield
I lost my shoe
In cold wet silt
My feet turned blue
I wished for stilts
The band played on
They took the stage
They sang a song
Twas all the rage
I saw the need for 4 wheel drive
When we saw the band Skillet live
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reflections
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Posted:Aug 8, 2014 6:08 am
Last Updated:Dec 24, 2014 8:27 pm
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the last year or two has been rough my life changed and I wasn't ready for it but whatever happened it doesn't change my 15 years of happiness 20 if you include the courting/dating phase that is a whole lot longer then most people ever get we had a good run and if he doesn't think so then at least I know that what we had was something special we wern't perfect or ideal by any stretch of the imagination especally in hindsight but we did go through them together and we were a team and just because that is over now that doesn't mean my life was a waste or that the relationship was a waste shit happens and we move on
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fear? what?
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Posted:Jul 2, 2014 8:35 am
Last Updated:Dec 2, 2016 11:43 am
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Someone here was concerned about me I think that is touching and wonderful I have never been concerned about my own safety I have a little guy who lives in my heart who will protect me and if that fails I will go directly to the arms of Jesus in girl scouts I climbed ropes and ladders to the tops of the trees I did trust falls in youth group went on a mission trip to the ghetto hang gliding haunted houses zip lines roller coasters we would even play kidnapper and tie each other to the chairs to see if we could get free sat in a casket been locked in a closet hung out in a cemetery at midnight
we were discouraged from playing the Ouija board or having a seance we were told it would give Satan and his minions a way into our soul then we got to go to a seminar on how a dude had to break free from the grip of the devil
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Posted:Jun 25, 2014 6:33 am
Last Updated:Jan 1, 2015 5:51 am
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women do not have to be humiliated to be submissive men do not have to be bullies to be dominate why are these concepts so easy to understand on a sex site but so difficult to grasp in the world of right wing religion where it is not just taught and preached but integrated in such a fundamental level in a world where women are judged on how many offspring they can produce and men are judged on how well they provide for those offspring basic human dignity is trampled I will never go back to letting anyone have that much control of me the women I know who are still in the lifestyle see me as a heathen and are praying for me the women I know who left the lifestyle did a complete switch they no longer believe in god either and are just as motivated in teaching atheist beliefs as they were in teaching family values I know this is not the place for this but I don't know where else to post it so here we go
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question
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Posted:May 18, 2014 3:42 pm
Last Updated:Jul 4, 2016 8:34 am
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so is coming and squirting the same? different? are they related? can you have one without the other? how do you know if it's the big finish? can men tell? is it the clenching? if I throw in a few kegels does it matter?
I know basic stuff but I missed the sex is for fun not just procreation class
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