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Its a Boy!!
Posted:Dec 23, 2005 6:23 am
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:27 pm
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We found out yesterday that my first grandbaby, due May 12th, is a boy!!

Thats simply icing on the cake as we know he's h ealthy and developing normally.

My and his wife are young and perhaps not ready for this responsibility but with the love and support of a caring extended family all will be well.

My Mother reminded me that when she married, in 1945, 19 was the norm for marriage and starting families. Its only been recently that folks have put these things off in order to establish careers etc.

This new arrival will be a pistol i'm sure! His Mom is a redhead as is his fathers twin brother so i suspect fire on the roof and in his heart!!!

Baby's name will be Layne Robert. Layne after the lead singer in "Alice in Chains" and Robert for his grandfather and great grandfather. When I told Ricky he said, what kind of a name is Layne! When i told him it was in honor of a rock star, he said, well goddammit name the Mick Jagger!!! Showing his age, lol
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Merry Christmas
Posted:Dec 23, 2005 5:58 am
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:27 pm
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So this is Christmas
And what have you done
Another year over
And a new one just begun
Ans so this is Christmas
I hope you have fun
The near and the dear one
The old and the young

A very merry Christmas
And a happy New Year
Let's hope it's a good one
Without any fear
And so this is Christmas
For weak and for strong
For rich and the poor ones
The world is so wrong
And so happy Christmas
For black and for white
For yellow and red ones
Let's stop all the fight
A very merry Christmas
And a happy New Year
Let's hope it's a good one
Without any fear
And so this is Christmas
And what have we done
Another year over
And a new one just begun
Ans so this is Christmas
I hope you have fun
The near and the dear one
The old and the young
A very merry Christmas
And a happy New Year
Let's hope it's a good one
Without any fear
War is over over
If you want it
War is over
Now...
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Peace on Earth
Posted:Dec 20, 2005 3:52 am
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:27 pm
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DIFFERENT CHRISTMAS POEM

The embers glowed softly, and in their dim light,
I gazed round the room and I cherished the sight.
My wife was asleep, her head on my chest,
My beside me, angelic in rest.
Outside the snow fell, a blanket of white,
Transforming the yard to a winter delight.
The sparkling lights in the tree I believe,
Completed the magic that was Christmas Eve.

My eyelids were heavy, my breathing was deep,
Secure and surrounded by love I would sleep.
In perfect contentment, or so it would seem,
So I slumbered, perhaps I started to dream.
The sound wasn't loud, and it wasn't too near,
But I opened my eyes when it tickled my ear.
Perhaps just a cough, I didn't quite know,
Then the sure sound of footsteps outside in the snow.

My soul gave a tremble, I struggled to hear,
And I crept to the door just to see who was near.
Standing out in the cold and the dark of the night,
A lone figure stood, his face weary and tight.
A soldier, I puzzled, some twenty years old,
Perhaps a Marine, huddled here in the cold.
Alone in the dark, he looked up and smiled,
Standing watch over me, my wife and my .

"What are you doing?" I asked without fear,
"Come in this moment, it's freezing out here!
Put down your pack, brush the snow from your sleeve,
You should be at home on a cold Christmas Eve!"
For barely a moment I saw his eyes shift,
Away from the cold and the snow blown in drifts..
To the window that danced with a warm fire's light
Then he sighed and he said "Its really all right,

I'm out here by choice. I'm here every night.

Sleep without fear as you turn out your lights."
"It's my duty to stand at the front of this line,
That separates you from the darkest of times.
No one has asked or begged or implored me,
I'm proud to stand here like my fathers before me.
My Gramps died at 'Pearl on a day in December,"
Then he sighed, "That's a Christmas 'Gram always remembered."

My dad stood his watch in the jungles of 'Nam',
And now it is my turn and so, here I am.
I've not seen my own in more than a while,
But my wife sends me pictures, he's sure got her smile.
Then he bent and he carefully pulled from his bag,
The red, white, and blue... an American flag.

"I can live through the cold and the being alone,
Away from my family, my house and my home.
I can stand at my post through the rain and the sleet,
I can sleep in a foxhole with little to eat.
I can carry the weight of killing another,
Or lay down my life with my sister and brother..
Who stand at the front against any and all,
To ensure for all time that this flag will not fall."
"So go back inside," he said, "harbor no fright,
Your family is waiting and I'll be all right."

"But isn't there something I can do, at the least,
"Give you some money, prepare you a feast?
It seems all too little for all that you've done,
For being away from your wife and your ."

Then his eye welled a tear that held no regret,
"Just tell us you love us, and never forget.
To fight for our rights back at home while we're gone,
To stand your own watch, no matter how long.
For when we come home, either standing or dead,
To know you remember we fought and we bled.
Is payment enough, and with that we will trust,
That we mattered to you as you matterd to us.

WE ALL NEED TO PRAY FOR OUR

MILITARY PERSONNEL EVERY NIGHT

and remember them this holiday season!

The music of life is always worth singing!

GOD BLESS OUR TROOPS
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Rest in Peace
Posted:Dec 4, 2005 5:43 am
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:27 pm
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The Gehring have been found.

The two , taken from a fireworks display in NH, by their Father. Driven across the country the , {preteen} were shot and buried along a highway in the midwest.

The Father commited suicide in prison. I think thats too good for him. He should have years to reflect on what he did. Their Mother does!!

To the end, this man lied to make himself out to be less than a monster. He said he killed the with one shot each as they slept. There are at least three bullets in each . A monster, indeed he was!!!

I will never understand this. A divorce, bitter yes but a reason to end the lives of two on the threshhold of life? Revenge against the Mom??? My God, they were his too!!
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Happy Holidays!
Posted:Dec 4, 2005 4:52 am
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:27 pm
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What a difference a year makes!!

After a two year struggle when i didnt know from one day to the next what was gonna happen, this feels great!!

I have Christmas spirit, decorated the apartment a little, and am doing a little shopping!! Can't do a lot, but at least i can give the ones i love a present.

My apartment building feels like home. The lobby is decorated, a tree, lots of other things, music, its a good place to live.

hmmmmmm, its cliche but sums up my attitude,

ITS A WONDERFUL LIFE
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T"was a lovely Day
Posted:Nov 25, 2005 5:49 am
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:27 pm
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The Turkey was moist, the gravy was excellent!! Our pies were "to die for"

We laughed, told stories, shed one or two quick tears, and ate and ate and ate!!!!

Wow! Today woulda been by 28th wedding anniversary!!!!

And now, Happying Christmas Shopping!!!!!!!
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Thanksgiving
Posted:Nov 23, 2005 5:31 am
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:27 pm
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With the was noisy but nice, lol

Nate arrived with two friends and the five teenagers made short work of the turkey and all the fixin's

We laughed, didnt talk about Nate's impending date with the state, he made it real clear that he didnt want us to. When he lefted he hugged me. This was a momentous thing!! Nate doesnt show his feelings and doesnt like to be touched. Part of his disorder I imagine, so hugging is a really big deal for him. I'm proud of me, I didnt shed a tear till after they were gone.

My other and in law will be here tomorrow along with some really good friends. All in all, a very good holiday!!
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I truly have other things to talk about, this is it
Posted:Nov 22, 2005 4:22 am
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:27 pm
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"anwer me this riddle
why it's ok to belittle
in your blog some poor joe
but in a message board, no
seems like a hypocritical piddle"

"There once was a woman who loved blogging
The drama in her life she enjoyed logging
She could whine about those who were mean
How dare they insult the A.F.F. queen!
Stroke by stroke her victims she'll keep on dogging"

These two "limericks" appeared in the "People" group along with many others. Since they are aimed at me and i do hope the author doesnt try to hide behind the "i named no one card" again. It doesnt work and it makes you look ridiculous.

I'll answer the "riddle" here. It is not ok to belittle. Never!! Anywhere! Anytime!! and i challenge you to show where i have belittled anyone.

I do like to blog. Many do. If i were prone to whine, i would go to the chatroom and whine there where folks have to watch. I do not consider chronicling ones life, trials and tribulations, successes and happiness whining. Blogging is personal, not many read mine and thats a good thing. I do not write to entertain the masses

Several months ago, Brooklynct2003 took exception to something in the "People" group, I cant remember what. He used his blog to tear down the group, the moderator and myself, the co moderator. That blog is now gone, for a self serving reason but i find it hypocritical that he now chastises me.

I choose to express my feelings here rather than in group or chat for a very simple reason. These are my thoughts!!!!! I do not feel that I need to bore folks in chat or group nor do i have a need for attention as many do. My blog is read by a few, group is read by many. Seems logical to me.

When Song and I engaged in the "battle of limericks", we honestly did so with humor in mind. We countered every personal insult with laughs. When "Vinnie" called us hens we clucked at him, when he called us cows we responded with "moo moo." Awhile ago,when we were dubbed "Hags" we decided that meant Happy,Attractive,Gorgeous,Smart" I suppose that when folks call names and it doesnt get to the target, it makes em mad, well, too bad. Song and I laugh, its funny. Come on! namecalling went out with elementary school!! We laugh at "Drama Queen," we laughed at "Realityisabitch" and we roared at "Schlongbird," were we supposed to get upset? Please!!!

If i'm not mistaken, I have talked about negative feelings toward a grand total of three affers throughout the life of this blog. I hardly think that qualifies as "dogging victims." Do i regret doing so, of course not. I didnt ask anyone to make a decision about these folks based on what i write, nor do i "im" about them, spreading gossip and venom to others in an attempt to get them to "take sides." I needed to express my feelings for myself, period.

MissB im'd me yesterday. She mentioned that I was stronger than she because I am weathering this "Vinnie" storm while she chose to leave rather than continue the war with him. She read my blog, sees that I think they were both wrong to engage in such an enchange of venom, yet she accepts my opinion without rancor. Its my opinion, subject to no one's approval, she's adult enough to know that, "Vinnie" isnt, bottom line.

I finally decided to stop engaging with "Vinnie" when he chose to belittle my blog and my "sad life." I tried to block him from reading this but I guess that isnt a feature here. He continues to spew in group, backtracking, saying his words were taken out of context, trying to place blame on others. No matter, he'll run out of steam soon.

In the meantime let me assure you Vinnie. I do not consider myself the "Queen" of anything. I post in one group, my own group. I chat , not nearly as much as i used to. I attend few meets, I im with a few people, and I have a lot of good friends met thru this medium. I am honest, perhaps to a fault. Why? because I'm a saint? not hardly! Because I learned the hard way that honesty will serve one well. I have openly admitted to my own duplicity, its in the past and not worth repeating. Am i going to change, be forced into silence, slink away cuz you beat me down. Don't count on it. I've been a target before and I, no doubt, will be again, I've been in Affairlook since 1999 and took the name Reality a few years later. Since then I have had that handle, have continued with it even when attacked by "Winky" who was, trust me, a formidable warrior, making you look tame, lol. I didnt change my name, didnt hide and don't plan on doing so now. I trust that if i remain honest, open and forthright I will continue to please the one person i must answer to, Myself!!!

In the meantime "Vinnie" continues to flood the limerick thread with his lame lines. Oh well, he thinks he's good, thats all that counts, lol
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Happy Thanksgiving
Posted:Nov 21, 2005 5:40 am
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:27 pm
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I have two thanksgivings this year. Tonight will be for my and Thursday for friends . Zach and Molly will be here both days altho Molly has to work for awhile on Thursday.

We're celebrating tonight because my redheaded will be paying his debt to society beginning Wednesday and going on till after Christmas. I hope it teaches him something, but i'm afraid it wont.

On 4/20 there were rumors of a shoot out that would occur at two Manchester schools. Supposedly the fight was between students, the straight and those who are members of a cult heavy metal band "Insane Clown Posse"

This band sings about rebellion and nonconformity and the followers treat it as a "religion" So, on that mornin, Nate painted his face in the "ICP" style and donned the clothes, this was in solidarity with other members, he had no intentions of shooting up the school, had no weapons but still. When the school saw these folks hanging around outside they called the police and from there things went downhill. Nate and his friends were stopped, they searched his backpack, found weed packaged to sell and arrested him on possession with intent, within a school zone.

After months of negotiation his plea bargain has reduced the charges to simple possession and involves 60 days in jail. I wonder if he has any idea how very lucky he is. Just being within a school zone could have gotten him a long sentence.

No Mother wishes to see her "do time" but as they say, do the crime, do the time.

I have always been open with my boys, they know how i feel about weed. I believe it should be legalized, but fact is, it isnt!! And frankly, after seeing the make up and clothes he was wearing, i believe the charges should have been "guilty by reason of being an idiot"

Unfortunately, he made the website as an "Insane clown Posse" cult hero. He's more commited than ever.

We all rebelled against society during our years, he's 19, maybe it'll end soon.
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Happy Birthday!
Posted:Nov 19, 2005 4:25 am
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:27 pm
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I will think about my friend today, I miss her!

I especially miss her irreverance and her sense of humor, it served her well.

I think she was destined to have the ability to laugh at herself, she was bawdy, tough and street wise. How could she be any different.

Her parents, in their innocence gave her a name that would serve to make her all she was.

Yep, Johnny Cash sang of a boy named Sue
I knew a gal who's name was

Gay Leslie Fox
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Sigh
Posted:Nov 18, 2005 6:27 am
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:27 pm
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Mom went to the hospital last night. She's been having to do this a lot lately.

In 1950 she contracted polio and over the years its been discovered that there is "post polio " syndrome and all the ramifications are not known as yet.

She has infections in her legs that they can't seem to get a handle on. They look much like diabetic legs altho she isnt diabetic.

Its hard to see this, she's always been a strong woman and I grew up watching her overcome her disability. Now i see it overcoming her.

My brothers and i fear that she will lose her leg and that will put her whole life in flux. She will not be able to stay in her home if that happens. She's a proud woman and set in her ways, She's also a difficult person and will not accept change well.

I had planned on a trip to Mahcy's tonight but I think I must stay close. I can't do anything but say a prayer but i need to be here.
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Yesterday
Posted:Nov 12, 2005 6:39 am
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:27 pm
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We went to M'head to help Song move the heavy stuff to her new apartment. What a great place!! Seeing her out of the dark cave and into the sunshiney open space that is her new home was a wish come true for me. Diva and I look forward to spending time there!

There are wonderful stone steps leading into the building and i promptly fell "up" them. Luckily i was carrying pillows so no harm was done, lol.

I woke up this am in my new place and immediately thought about my soul friend sleeping in her new bedroom and waking up with the sun streaming in, and it brought a smile to my face. We've come a long way since we became friends *S*

Once in awhile someone comes into your life who, altho very different, touches a spot that had been empty. Song knows. I had a dear best friend who always made me feel that i was special and worthwhile even when my family made me feel otherwise. That dear lady was taken from me three years ago {complications from diabetes} and a void the size of the Grand Canyon entered my life. That womans name was Gay and NO WE WERENT!!!!!!! She was my very best friend in the whole world and was privy to all that i endured from the age of fourteen. I loved her and miss her more than i can ever say.

I come out of a pretty dysfuntional family situation. My Mother had polio and it made her strong but distant. I cannot remember her ever wrapping her arms around me. My Father was a philanderer who took a lot of his aggresion towards my Mom out on me given that he never once hit her his fists needed to land somewhere. My two brothers grew up and began familites of their own. In order to cope with their dysfuntional upbringing they choose to focus on their immediate families and distance themselves from others. They are GREAT Fathers and I give them accolades for breaking that abusive cycle. However, I always felt like odd man out. I am the only and I never fit the mold that Mom insisted on, therefore to this day, I can spend half an hour with her and leave feeling that somehow i dont measure up.

Gay began as my Mothers friend. She was a lot older than I, I met her when I waS fourteeen. She was a young newly wed who bought a home in our neighborhood and became one of the coffee circle. She was Moms friend but always had time for us. As a matter of fact, lol, because she was sort of in between my Mothers friends and us age wise, she was our refuge when we skipped school or wanted to smoke a cigarette!! She was so much more than that to me. I remember the first time my Mother called my Father at his job and by the time he got to our house to "discipline" me, he was in a rage {Mom was good at promoting those}. When he began his physical discipline I reacted like any fourteen year old would, I screamed!!! All of a sudden, down the hall came Gay with all her New Jersey transplant attitude. She backed my Father who was no small guy down the hallway, finger in his chest, expletives flying!! That was the end of the beating that day!!

Through the years, Gay was always there. When my fragile ego took a hit, she would always be there to bolster my spirits and make me feel good. The one time she didnt think my decision was right was when I was getting married. She said, this isnt right Sherri. He's an ugly man inside. But that time i didnt listen and boy, was she right. I miss her!

Song came along a couple of years ago. We are different, so different. She's a lot classical, loves good scotch, designer clothes and fine wine. I'm a lot rocknroll, drink margueritas, shop at Walmart and grew up drinking Boones Farm strawberry wine. She wears rose colored glasses, sees the world, a lot of times, through impractical eyes. I am, if nothing else, steeped in common sense. Somehow, it works. We are the bestest friends and regardless of the campaign of some here, Journey for instance, we have a bond that cannot be broken. And, NO!!! WE ARE NOT GAY Ricky!!!!

When I had the heart attack Gay wasnt there, but Song was. She has been right along and I can honestly say that Gay is looking down with a smile on her face, knowing that her spot has been so adequately filled.

Whatever got me on this roll. I began talking about Song's new apartment. When I write in this blog, I often digress as I let my mind flow freely and type with emotions. Thats what a blog is for after all. Gays birthday is the 19th of this month and Song is also a November baby. Maybe thats it. I always think about Gay this time of year. Anyway, thanks Song, i know Gay rests easier knowing you are there.
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Beautiful Sunshiney Day
Posted:Nov 8, 2005 6:22 am
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:27 pm
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November, I cant believe it! Time goes by too damned fast!~!!

I took MissDiva to the vets yesterday. She needed her last shots and i was surprised to see that she weighed in at seven pounds! She is growing like a weed. Aptly named, she thinks she's the alpha here and i spend every day trying to convince her that she's wrong! lol

Thanksgiving is fast approaching. Gone are the days of big family gatherings, the making turkey decorations and our day after wreath making is a thing of the past. I have those memories tho and soon will have my first grandchild and, God willing, I'll make some new memories.

This year a few friends {Songbird included} will be coming here. We're gonna do a bird and have all the trimmings. Glad to know Song appreciates the difference between squash and pumpkin pie!!

This will be a different Holiday but a good one. My will do the very thing we all had to do when we were a young married couple and make the rounds from her parents, grandparents and end up here for pie. My errant still has to pay his dues for his indiscretions many months ago and will spend the Holidays at the expense of the State. His charge has been lowered to simple possession when they had him dead to rights for possession with intent, he needs to count himself lucky and learn from it. I fear he hasnt as yet. As a matter of fact last night he had a tattoo done. An "axeman" symbol of this "Insane Clown Posse", a rock group that is almost a religion. He had it done on the back of his hand tho his brother tried to talk him into putting it somewhere less obvious. I love my , but he is so immersed in this "ICP" lifestyle that I really cringe when he visits here. His hair, a beautiful strawberry blonde, is braided all over his head in tiny stick straight up braids. He often paints his face in this clown makeup the "ICP" wears. I know its anti society rebellion and will pass but it disturbs me.

What makes this even more disturbing to me is that this boy is bipolar. He no longer takes his meds as he's in charge now at nineteen. The government chooses to label him disabled and cut him a check every month without demanding anything from him. Seems to me that, since bipolar is controllable with meds and therapy {something he had all the time i was in charge} the state would issue rules to go with the check. Seek therapy, take your meds, show us you are helping yourself and we will continue to help you. Noooooooooooo, this is too common sense. Noooooooo, the government simply cuts him a monthly check and forgets about him. What sense is there in that????? This boy/man could be a productive member of society and instead the government makes it easy for him to sit at home, live his fantasy life and do nothing.

Thankfully his twin is doing well. Altho it would have been better to wait for a baby, they didnt and i'm excited about my first grandchild. The new groom has an excellent job, works everyday and overtime a lot, he seems to have grown up! Maybe one day his brother will do so as well, sigh
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