Just Curious...
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Posted:Jun 12, 2010 4:32 pm
Last Updated:Sep 20, 2010 4:49 am
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It's that time of the month for me. Aunt Flo has arrived. Damn it.
I am *always* at my most aroused during my period. Sex is all I can think about. And the best cure for cramps I've ever found is a good hard orgasm. Is this the same for other women? Do you all crave sex like I do during this time?
The problem, of course, is that most men just freak out about it and I don't get that, either. It's not like we women are spurting blood like we opened an artery. If done with a little care, it's not that messy, either. And it certainly isn't going to make your dick fall off. Guys usually love it when we women are soaking wet... so what's a little extra lubrication? So why does sex when a woman is on her period scare you guys so much?
Of course, I'm intensely sexually frustrated right now. Argh!!!
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Gold Member
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Posted:Jun 10, 2010 3:50 pm
Last Updated:Jun 16, 2010 5:11 am
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So... here I am again, a paying gold member. For a month, anyway. We'll see.
I'd just about written off Affairlook but got a very intriguing email from a gentleman that brought me back. I have high hopes for this one being a sexual masterpiece! We've been exchanging emails back and forth for a few days and I can't wait to meet him. Unfortunately, he's sitting at the airport right now getting ready to go out of town for two weeks. I'm bummed about that... but the anticipation is going to be delicious. All the teasing emails and photos back and forth, building up the excitement.
I love this fun stage of finding a new sex buddy. I adore his intelligence. God, guys, it's so fucking arousing to be seduced by a man that speaks in complete sentences with big words that just flow off his tongue. The physical fuck is always fun, but a physical fuck with a mind fuck is off the charts. Having him draw out these responses from me... emotionally and physically, making me so wet without even touching me. I know it's going to be explosive in two weeks when we get our hands on each other.
In the meantime, though... I might have to find a little something to occupy my time until he gets back! 
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Is It Even Possible...?
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Posted:May 19, 2010 2:53 pm
Last Updated:Jun 10, 2010 3:38 pm
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I've been taking a little break from Affairlook. Partly because I dropped my gold membership in favor of paying bills but mostly because my libido seems to have taken a hike.
This is pretty normal for me... I'll go for months at a time where all I want is sex, sex and then more sex and then suddenly, it all just dries up. But it always comes back so I'm not too worried about that.
What is worrying me, though, is whether or not it's possible for me to have a long-term, NSA relationship with a man. Is it possible to be intimate with a person time and time again without developing an emotional attachment?
I've been "seeing" a guy I met on here for a few months. And by seeing, I mean he comes over for sex when it's convenient for both of us. After a couple of months, I began resenting that he only comes over when he wants to get laid. Not that I necessarily wanted to start dating him, but I thought hanging out a little bit outside the bedroom might be nice. Both of us are single adults... we're not cheating on anyone. He's made it pretty clear that he's not interested in anything other than sex, though... and preferably, sex with other people involved.
Now, I'm very open-minded and have no trouble with the occasional threesome or moresome... but not every single time. Is that something inherent to women? One of those biological differences between men and women?
I've started to feel used and I think that's one of the reasons my libido has gone bye-bye. I think he wants me to be his partner because it's easier for men to get involved in group sex if they have a female partner and because he has and I don't... meaning, I have a place that's always available and cheaper than a hotel room.
I guess the thing is that since I wasn't exactly getting what I want (more than just sex) and that is all he is interested in, that I felt I was being nothing but a . And that bothers me. I am an enlightened, intelligent female that can embrace her sexuality and knows, intellectually, that women can need and desire sex just as much as any man. But I'm struggling with whether or not a woman can be physically intimate without needing emotional intimacy, too.
I don't want a "boyfriend". I don't want to get married, I don't want , I don't want to give up my space or my independence. I like my life... I'm 40 and set in my ways. I've lived alone for a very long time. I really don't want to change all that in the context of having a "real" relationship.
But...
I want the tease... I want the kissing and the foreplay that can happen when two people don't strip their clothes right off and jump into bed. I want to watch a movie with someone and spend the whole two hours snuggling and touching and stealing kisses before moving to the final act, even though we both know it's coming.
What are most people looking for here on Affairlook? One night stands or something more? I'm of the belief that sex only gets better the more comfortable you are with a person. I've had some really fun one night stands and I have no problem moving on after they're done... but when I have multiple encounters with someone, well... I can't keep having sex with someone that I don't like, right? So it's safe to assume that I do like someone if I'm inviting them back time and time again.
It's all such a cluster-fuck. Which is why I'm trying to get my head back on straight before I dive in again.
Thoughts? Opinions? Bueller?
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Being a Standard Member
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Posted:May 2, 2010 9:03 am
Last Updated:May 19, 2010 3:19 pm
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Well, shitballs. I've let my Gold membership lapse and looking at my budget for the next two weeks, I made the decision that I can better spend my $25 on something else like a tank of gas or something.
(Hey, I'm a nonprofit employee... cut me some slack! I'm trying to make the world a better place here!  )
It's been quite a while since I was a standard member and I'm really, really disappointed. I was aware that I wouldn't be able to watch live cams or videos. Or see all of someone's pictures. Or send emails. I can live with that.
But for fuck's sake, I can't view profiles at all now?? It seems that I remember from back when I first joined Affairlook that you could still view profiles as a standard member. Maybe not all of it, but I'm pretty sure you could see some of it.
I know that Affairlook is in the business of making money... but if I were a standard member that had never been Gold, I doubt I'd spend more than 5 minutes clicking around the site before getting frustrated and heading off to another site. And let's face it, guys, Affairlook could use more active female members to balance things out a bit. I see all the complaints about the fake profiles and hookers and spammers and bots on here.
In the long run, is it really a prudent business decision for Affairlook to frustrate potential credit-card carrying females? Or males, for that matter. I'm not at all suggesting women should be allowed to upgrade at discounted or free rates...
I'm just suggesting that maybe a standard membership should, at the very least, allow you to read a profile.
I've spent time on my profile. I've put some thought into what I say, what I'm looking for, etc. And I get pissed as all hell when I'm on IM and get pinged by men that don't match me at all because they haven't read my profile. Married men, young men, men that can't spell... and then they all say they can't read my profile because they're standard members.
I'll be honest... I really thought they were just being lazy. I didn't realize until this morning that they can't see ANYTHING.
So, the nonpaying members get pissed because they can't see or do anything. And the paying members get pissed because they've taken the time to put together a decent profile that few can see.
Moneypenny, the paying member, would be perfectly fine with EVERYONE being able to view my profile. Sure, make them pay in order to contact me. Or see my videos. Or view all my pictures. But at least... at the VERY least... let everyone be able to view the "about me" and the "what I'm looking for" sections.
Moneypenny, the standard member, is just frustrated that she can't view the live cams anymore.
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Oops... my bad. I *can* view the live cams. But only one at a time. Which is enough for me.
So, um... never mind. 
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Does it really work??
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Posted:Apr 26, 2010 3:05 pm
Last Updated:Sep 21, 2010 5:03 am
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I spend a lot of time both on Affairlook and Craig's List looking at ads.
I feel for you, guys. I really do. I *know* you get bombarded with scammers and fakes and bots. And I feel terrible about that for you, I really do.
However, I've noticed an increasing number of profiles and ads that seem to concentrate solely on demanding that any responders be REAL. NO FAKES. NO SCAMMERS. NO BOTS. And totally forget to put anything in the profile or ad that might actually entice a real woman to get naughty with them.
Now, I know it keeps real women from responding to you... because, typically, when I see that I just roll my eyes and move on. But does it really keep the bots, spammers and fakes from contacting you?
Once, just for fun, I posted an ad in the M4W section on Craig's List. The subject line? "I am a woman". Yeah, this didn't stop the spammers or bots or fakes. The responses came fast and furious.
Guys... the bots, spammers and fakes don't actually read your ads or profiles. They just respond. So wasting your words instructing automated computers not to contact you is, well... kinda silly, really. It's just a part of life... like death and taxes. You post an add or a profile and you're gonna get some crap. Unfortunate, yes, but absolutely unavoidable.
The real women looking through all those ads and profiles DO read them, though. And see very little to recommend you for a night of unbridled passion because all we know about you is that you don't want any fakes. Or spammers. Or bots.
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Feeling Bruised...
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Posted:Apr 25, 2010 12:05 pm
Last Updated:Sep 18, 2010 7:29 pm
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I suppose one of the reasons I started this little blog is to vent... so, please, allow me to vent about an experience I had last night.
I started talking to a guy who's ad I responded to on Craig's List. Now, that was my first mistake. Responding to an ad on CL is like opening Pandora's Box. 99.9% of the ads are just pure and utter crap. So, when I saw a post from someone who seemed to be pretty intelligent, I responded.
I'm fat. I do not try to hide this. I don't want any man to be unpleasantly surprised when we meet, anymore than I want to be unpleasantly surprised by any man I meet. I always, always send the guy a full body naked shot before we meet.
So, yeah... I sent this guy my picture and he was, well, somewhat honest in that he told me he didn't normally go for big gals but that I was interesting. I should have run then, I know. But, being horny, I didn't. Mainly... and this is stupid... because he had a room at Horseshoe and I didn't feel like hosting at my place.
So I get to the boat and go up to the room. He'd left a key for me at the desk, so I just let myself in. His opening line? "My, you *are* a big girl."
Again... I should have walked right out the door. But I'm a stubborn fool and I wanted to teach him a lesson about how good we fat chicks can be. Beauty is only skin deep... sensuality comes from much, much deeper inside.
I laid down on the bed with him and we watched TV for a while. How fun is that?? Anyhoo, after a bit I gave him a blowjob and we did the dirty deed. Quickly and without ANY foreplay for this girl.
At this point I was trying to figure out a way to extricate myself from this situation. But I hate confrontation. My bad.
We got dressed and went to the casino. He kept talking about things we were going to do all night and the next day (today). Now, this guy was no great prize, let me tell you. I'm pretty sure the pics he sent me were taken YEARS ago and were not a good representation of his looks.
We sat in the bar and had a few beers. The more beer he had, the more he felt the need to tell me about how fat I am and how much weight I need to lose and just exactly how I should go about doing it. Jackass.
As soon as he left to go play blackjack, I went to the room, grabbed my bag, left a note and the room key and took off. I'm kind of kicking myself today for not dumping a drink on his head, but I just wanted to get out of there.
So I guess the point of telling you guys this little tale is to ask you to, please, if you're not into BBWs, don't fake it.
I didn't deserve that. No one does. I feel like a complete cow today... and maybe I am.
Tomorrow, perhaps I'll remember that I'm more than just packaging. But today... I just feel bruised.
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Starting Out.
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Posted:Apr 25, 2010 11:09 am
Last Updated:Jan 20, 2011 2:27 pm
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I decided to start posting my thoughts and musings after each of my "adventures", as well as things I find as I peruse the listings on Affairlook and other sites... mostly Craig's List. Perhaps it'll be a bit cathartic for me. Possibly for you, too. Anyway, I hope you enjoy.
I've been on Affairlook for about a year and a half now, I guess, on and off. And for the most part, I've had great experiences so far. Affairlook is definitely slated in a woman's favor. I think in my area it's about 26,000 men to just over 2,000 women. And who knows how many of those women are real?? So it's not at all hard for me, a fat chick, to find interested men.
However, it's NOT easy to find men that I find interesting. Maybe it's something basic... something in our genetic makeup. The differences between men and women. I think most... not all, but most... men are just happy to find a warm wet place to stick their cock. Of course, they all have dreams of that warm wet place being part of a nubile 19 year old blonde with firm tits and a tight round ass, but I think most of them quickly discover that there really aren't a lot of those going around.
For women, it's different. Yeah, we like handsome men. But for us... at least, for me... there has to be more than that. Me, I like intelligence. HUGE turn-on. And this is a problem in that men that call themselves chokuwithmydick don't seem all that intelligent. And after that, they have a line about how they want a blowjob. Well, GREAT!!! Thanks for letting me know. Because, you know, most men just HATE having their dick sucked.
/sarcasm
And... Jesus... the spelling and grammar. Guys... come on. Really. Stop with the fucking chat-speak already! Please! Is it really THAT hard to type the full work out? Is a tiny bit of effort going to kill you? And for Christ's sake, learn how to spell "tongue". Nothing turns me off faster than seeing "tounge" used in a profile. Especially if it's used more than once. If you can't spell it, how can I expect you to know how to use it?
Maybe I'm the odd duck here... perhaps things like this don't bother most women. But when I have a shitload of profiles to sort through looking for a man to fuck, the little things like that matter!
Photos. Yes, I know you'll send them to me if I ask. But... when there are so many guys on here that DO post them, why would I bother with those that don't. And that's a shame because I know there are some amazing men on this site that I haven't looked at because they don't have a photo.
No, I don't expect you to post a face shot. Really, I hope you don't. If you do, that's kind of saying to me that you lead a life where people seeing your face on a site like this wouldn't affect you, professionally or personally. And that sends up red flags for me. While I'm not at all ashamed of my sexuality, I'm also think it's no one's business but mine. Think that your boss can't find your profile by googling your incredibly clever screenname? Think again. So, yeah... pics are important... you can show a lot without showing your face!!
Well, don't I just sound all sorts of picky and bitchy? I'm not, really. I swear. I just know what I like and what I don't like. Take it for what it's worth... if you guys with names like chokuwithmydick and no pics and nothing in your about me section other than "I want 2 fuk u hard" are scoring like crazy on here, I guess I'm the insane one for expecting too much!
Now that I've gotten all that shit out of the way... my next posts will start looking into my adventures in hooking up. Don't worry, guys... I won't name names!
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