Responsibilities getting in the way
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Posted:Sep 3, 2011 1:52 am
Last Updated:Jan 3, 2015 2:44 pm
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So, being the horny devil that i am, i don't often get a chance to act out on in.
Like most women, i have responsibilities at home and unfortunately that means making me time is almost impossible.
It's really frustrating, especially when you meet someone online and all you ever tell them is - Sorry hun, can't tonight.
Yeah some men called me a tease or fake, but the thing is, i'm actually non of those. It's just not that easy for me to make appointments on short notice  and unfortunately most men don't understand that. They expect you to answer to their booty calls and when u don't, u get called a fake. Damn, don't they realise how much i wish i could drop everything at the drop of a hat and go satisfy both our needs?
So i've come up with a way to sort of make up for that. Not cybersex (sorry but there's nothing in just typing hhmm, oohhh, yeahh baby, that does it for me, lol) but cam2cam. found it really enjoyable and a major turnon to know that theres people watching me  .
Needless to say, my batery operated friends have seen a lot of action lately lol
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Why i sometimes hate opening my mails
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Posted:Mar 16, 2010 2:08 pm
Last Updated:Nov 15, 2011 5:29 am
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Jeez, i've just about had it.
Most of the men on here, think they can wow us by a first time mail that reads something like:
Oh baby, lets fuck
Ohhh would love to fuck your tits
shit like that
so i've finally had it and actually responded to such a mail.
Read below the pig's response.
Nick: jamesartman
54 year old Man
Bellville, western cape, South Africa
1st mail:
> > Sender: jamesartman
> > To: echick
> > Date: Mar 16, 2010 12:55 AM
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> > come here baby let me fuck you from the back.. bending you over the bonnet
> > james
my response:
Sender: echick
> To: jamesartman
> Date: Mar 16, 2010 11:35 AM
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> This e-mail is the perfect example of why some women have left the site!!!!!!
His, totally uncalled for response:
RE: RE: mmmmmmmmmmmm
Mar 16, 2010 3:02 PM
> then please get your fat overblown tits of the site and become a nun. you pretenscious old cow . you cant get a fuck anywhere else in any case . ---------------------------------------------------
>
I mean, please guys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I must say i'm really offended by this and this truly put all other men in bad light.
This guy is probably one of those who think he's god's gift to woman and treat all woman as "working girls"
Just me having my say
(oh ps, am extremely pissed off by this)
L
ps.2 truly hope he's reading this, for i happen to be one of the most active ladies in cpt, who also just so happen to arrange our meets and i can and will make it extremely difficult for him in our community!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sorry, all, i'm not normally a bitch, but if some pushes my buttons like this i can rant on forever!!!!!!!!!
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Cape Town Meet & Greet tonight!
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Posted:Oct 29, 2009 2:11 am
Last Updated:Mar 3, 2010 4:42 am
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Hi all, have posted in the Groups, but for thoses interested.
We're having a meet & greet tonight.
Date: 29/10/2009
Time: 19:30
Place: Dros - Willow Bridge (behind Tygervalley Centre)
Hope to see you there
Hugs & Kisses
L
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Am back!!!!
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Posted:Oct 27, 2009 4:33 am
Last Updated:Sep 1, 2011 6:15 am
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Finally i can say i'm back in full swing!
All the crappy emotions have left my side, am even sleeping for a change, lol.
Now all i need is a good night out and lots and lots of alcohol and orgasms!
Hhhmm, watch this space
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Just popping in to say hi
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Posted:May 21, 2009 6:31 am
Last Updated:Oct 22, 2009 2:01 am
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I'm sorry if i've neglected some of my friends on the site, it's not intentionally. Have gone through a bit of a rough patch.
It all started when i found out i had 3 growths in my womb. Went through hell while the tests was being done. (you know me, always thinking the worse) Luckily it came out it's benign, But the stress did get me under though.
After that i caught a new manager at one of our restaurants steeling an amount of R50 000 over the month and a half she was working there. She was my responsibility and my boss made me feel like i was the one who stole the money (if only i did, i would be a lot better off than i'm now). Things at work became unbearable and when i finally opened my mouth, my boss tried to fire me. The disciplinary went in my favor and i was found innocent, since the so called offenses was ungrounded and did not ring a word of truth. However, i got to an agreement with my boss and was left jobless, but with enough money to keep me up for a while (and even take the on a little holiday in July).
All of the stress really got to me. I'm an extremely emotional person and don't handle stress and failure well. Once again i failed at something and i hate that feeling.
My insomnia is just getting worse. No sleep will come to me, which in turn make me impossible to live with.
However, i have decided to try and put the last 3 months behind me and concentrate on my more. Am even thinking of moving to Mpumalanga (if i can find a job there). Always wanted to stay there and since the parents are planning to retire in a couple of years and move there as well, it just might be the best choice for me.
Hugs and kisses
L
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Insomnia - I think i need some help!!!
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Posted:Feb 18, 2009 12:20 pm
Last Updated:Sep 3, 2009 12:10 am
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I have a major problem. Insomnia. Just can't sleep.
Sitting up till 2am and then after finally falling asleep, i'm awake again by 4am. This has been going on for about 3 weeks now and it's seriously not helping my emotional state of mind. (not to mention that i'm getting a bit tired of watching the idols channel)
I've tried absolutely everything, i dose myself every night with all kinds of pain killers and stuff, still no sleep. I've even tried herbal meds. Yet no sleep will come to me.
I am sooooo tired, yet my mind just doesn't want to shut up at night. I can't stop thinking and get myself in a tizz about everything. My colleagues have sent me home today, for i've been crying uncontrollably since last week. It can be the smallest thing that will trigger my tears. Almost gave in my letter of resignation last week due to a total personality clash with someone i work with. (oh and because he called me rude, unprofessional and incompetent, that from someone who watches gay porn while his employees are behind him, someone who never do what he's asked, so yes i do get frustrated when my job is on the line due to him and he knows i can't stand him. I'm not the type of person who pretends to like someone if i don't, not a good actress at all)
Anyway, to cut another boring story short. I really need help falling asleep. So if any of you know of something (other than sleeping pills, or anything i can overdose on) please let me know.
L
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The twins - their mom's pride and joy
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Posted:Feb 6, 2009 7:36 am
Last Updated:Sep 3, 2009 12:13 am
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I must be one of the proudest moms ever when it comes to my .
Not that they have achieved much in their 5 years of life, but boy, they do take every opportunity they can to make mommy proud.
I missed out on the local Meet and Greet last friday, but i'm not sorry for one second. I actually spent the whole weekend with my boys and had loads of fun.
Last week friday it was their first pre-primary school "braai". I thought that it was going to be a quick thing. You know go at 6pm, braai and then go home. In the end I was the last to leave.
I was a little apprehensive at first, since i'm the only single parent in their school, not to mention one of the youngest. But i've decided to go for the ' sake. Must say i don't regret a minute of it. The had a ball and their mom made some gr8 new friends who don't give a damn that there isn't a dad in sight. Hell they even let their husbands take my braai over, lol.
At the braai i couldn't help but hear some of the conversations around me. And to my surprise a lot of them was about me and the boys. Not bad gossip, but actually (surprisingly) good things. Of how well dressed the boys are, how well mannered, what a good job i'm doing raising such good on my own. I mean wow, i've never expected anything like that. (yeah yeah, i know i'm bragging, but hey i feel good about the boys)
I know my can be naughty and i'm not blind to their faults, but i also know that those to boys of mine have hearts of gold and it's sometimes nice to hear that other people think so too.
Now here comes the real proud mommy bit, lol
The saturday morning was the ' athletics at school.
Now since they are only in pre-school, their event was only for fun, so no prizes.
They put the in small groups of about 10 boys.
First it was Juan's turn to run. Now Juan is mommy's little blonde blue eyed boy, a little shorter than his brother, but still tall for his 5 years. He's the shy one. He's so athletically built (have no idea where he get that from, definitely not from me, lol), anyway, he won his heat. And mommy's chest just couldn't swell any bigger.
Next was Michael's turn. Now Michael is the tall (much taller than your average 5 year old, or even 7 year olds), really chubby, dark haired boy (shame, poor looks exactly like his mom). The outgoing one (he can't keep his mouth shut for more than a second) Now when it was time for poor Michael to run his race, he struggled to keep his balance right from the start. All the way he stumbled and fell over his own two feet. (Now here's the part i'm really proud of) Every time he fell, he would stand up and keep on running towards the finish line, with a great big smile on his face. All the other who fell, stayed down and cried, refusing to carry on. Not my Michael. He was enjoying himself way too much. You see i teach my that winning isn't everything, enjoying it is more important. And that's exactly what he did. He enjoyed it so much not even the fact that he fell 3 times could keep him from having fun.
Michael ended up almost last. As he finished his race, Juan who was standing next to me watching, said to me with great honesty and concern for his twin "mommy i think we should find Michael another sport to do". The way he said was so sweet. He realized that his brother also needed a sport to do well in.
When we got home and had to tell the whole story to their "oupa" and "ouma", Juan said that Michael came last. To which Michael replied "I wasn't Last, i won, I had fun" And we all agreed on that. Both my boys are winners in their own unique way 
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Am I a bad person?
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Posted:Jan 13, 2009 11:50 pm
Last Updated:Sep 3, 2009 12:18 am
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It's almost 26/01. The death anniversary of my best friend and the love of my life. I can't believe it's been 3 years already.
I miss him so much, but the sad part is, I don't think of him as often as i used to. I have this picture of him next to my bed and i used to cry myself to sleep every night looking at his face. But i've come to realize i don't do that anymore.
Does that make me a bad person? Not feeling so sad as i used to? Not feeling guilty of his death anymore?
I feel like i've betrayed his memory, like i'm supposed to still be in deep mourning. But i'm not anymore. Yes there is the odd occasions that i still cry over him or that i still feel responsible for his death, but those times are getting less and less.
I will never forget him, or the love i have for him, but is it wrong for me to want to move on?
His mother (who's living in Holland) send me emails and sms's weekly, for her it's like he died yesterday. She always want me to reassure her that i'm still crying, that i'm missing him as much as she is, that i'm still thinking of him constantly.
I found myself lying to her sometimes. Too scared to tell her the truth that i've come to terms with his death, that i've finally accepted it.
Does this make me a bad person?
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Just my Horny self
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Posted:Dec 12, 2008 11:24 am
Last Updated:Jan 20, 2009 12:46 pm
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Ok so you guessed it, i'm horny and at home on a freaking Friday evening. Not even my battery operated friends are any help tonight.
Sad i know.
Luckily i have The meet to look forward to on the 18th and don't forget the lovely dark room. Hhhm, getting all excited thinking about it.
You see that lovely dark room have a way of making fantasies come true, lets just hope mine does this time.
My ultimate fantasy is ..........(drum roll)..........
a dp!!!!!!!!!!
Yup i'm sure all girls (or rather most girls) have that fantasy. Two men with all their attention focused on you. Not being afraid to help themselves to your body simultaneously.
Two opposites. One gently fucking my pussy and caressing me, the other giving me a mind blowing anal while (not so gently) nibbling my back (ok ok, i kind of like my man to bite me while i reach my climax, weird i know, but hey we all have our little fetish)
Damn really not doing myself any good at the moment.
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Just another sad song
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Posted:Nov 3, 2008 1:27 pm
Last Updated:Sep 3, 2009 12:21 am
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Just another sad song
This is a story I�m sure a lot of people have heard before. A story about a girl seeking happiness. Yeah I know boring, so I don�t blame you if you stop reading here.
This story is nothing out of the ordinary, nothing special, just like the girl it�s about.
Teachers used to call this girl a genius. She got awards for academics without opening a book to study. Her IQ was way above average. She performed well in sports and everything else she put her hands on. Until the age of 13, she lived up to everybody�s ideals. Then one day she stopped.
She developed major depression, which she hid for so long. There was no reason for this development, it just happened. She would cut herself to ease her pain, or maybe to show the world what she was feeling on the inside. However, no one noticed. No one noticed the pain she felt, the self loathing, the worthlessness she was feeling. To the world she looked normal, even happy. She had lots of friends, yet no one realized how lonely she felt.
She ended up drinking and experimenting with drugs. Although she was always careful not to become addicted.
Her grades dropped and she found it hard to concentrate on anything. She got bored easily and her mind often wondered off. Where before she was the genius, she was now just the disappointment.
She went to doctors in secret, trying out all kinds of antidepressants, yet nothing seemed to work. She could never explain her depression. Sometimes she�s in such a good mood, it makes her all hyper and she can�t sit still, then suddenly, as if that happy feeling was never there, she sinks into a black hole. Once in that black hole, she struggles to get out.
She�s now shifting from the one job to the other. Still not knowing what she wants to do with her life. She�s unable to have a steady relationship. She�s even been told she�s incapable of loving a man.
Her biggest fear in life is to know that people don�t like her. So she try to act the way she think other people might accept her. Maybe even like her.
She�s started so many suicide notes, but could never go through with it. Thinking of her . Although they don�t need her, she doesn�t want them to be the in class who�s mother died. Yeah I know, always worried about what other people might think, even after she�s dead.
There�s plenty more to say about her, but I�m afraid this page is simply not long enough.
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Am I the only one, or is our fellow Affairlook member getting more aggressive
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Posted:Aug 21, 2008 11:21 pm
Last Updated:Dec 12, 2008 11:29 am
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I’m not one of the regular bloggers, nor do I post a lot of comments on the blogs that I read.
I’m an observer. I read what people have to say and I take it in. There’s a couple of blogs I read on a regular basis. Why? Well first of all I feel those bloggers are intelligent and insightful. However, lately I’ve noticed that some are becoming more and more agro.
Why do people feel the need to take everything people say in their blogs, personally????
I hate it when I see a new blogger being attacked for making a stupid remark. Why not just say “I don’t appreciate that statement” and then leave it there. If you really feel so strongly about it, write a blog of your own stating how you feel about a certain issue and leave the other blogger out of it. You can even write the blogger a mail, stating how you feel.
A fellow blogger once told me, that you should never slant someone in your blog. I’ve taken that to heart and try to always be objective. However, that same blogger, who I believe is one of the most intelligent ladies on this site and for whom I have a lot of respect as a person, have overstepped her own rule. What happened??
Is there a specific reason?
THE RACE ISSUE!
Now, growing up in a country where Racism was and still is a huge problem and being one of the lucky few who was brought up knowing that all are equal and that race does not exist, I still believe everyone is entitled to their own opinions. No matter how wrong we may think they are, we are still not entitled to slant them for being ignorant and just plain stupid. Yes it hurts when you hear people making racist remarks and I too sometimes wish I can strangle them until they open their eyes, but I believe that you can do the strangling without aggression.
Ok, I know I’m not making any sense.
I’m going to make a stupid and cliché remark. “Can’t we all just be friends and love one another”!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
A site like Affairlook is there first and foremost to make friends. It gives you a choice who you wish to contact, who’s blog you want to read and Who you want to make your friend. This aggression is making the site sour. No wonder so many of our friends are leaving.
If you wish to leave one of those negative, aggressive kind of remarks, please do, for I won’t take it personally, I’ll just read it and make up my own mind on what I think of it.
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Not much to say
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Posted:Aug 6, 2008 12:41 pm
Last Updated:Nov 14, 2008 11:23 am
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Well, as per usual, I don't have anything of gr8 importance to say, nor do i have some wise words for others.
However i'm bored! So please be patient with me.
I've been invited to my best friends' place coming Saturday, for a 'braai'. When i asked her who'll all be there, she mentioned all the couples that we know. To my shock i realised i'll be the only single person there!!! Now to make matters even worse, the guy I recently broke up with, will also be there with his Girlfriend. Now, my question is, do i go and pretend to enjoy myself? Or do i just say no thanks. Another option, is to drink myself into a stuper before i go, so that when i get there, i wouldn't be in a state to care. (hhmm, i think that the latter option will most probably be the one i'm going with)
Hhmmmm, what else can I mumble about?????
My dad starting smsing me out of the blue. Now this is after 5 years of no communication. He first starting asking me how I am and being the better one, i replied back (very politely i might add). Anyway, he asked if we can talk sometime, to which i answered yes, but first i would like to know what he wants to discuss (hoping that he have finally grown up and want to get involved in the twins' life).
To my dismay het wrote me the following - "Want to talk about us, about being a family, u, me and the boys, about learning to care, tollerate and love one another. People change (now this is the part i thought he's going to say he wants to be a dad for his ), people's needs change (hhmm, now here i started thinking ok, he's definitaly ready to be a dad) but most importantly about the two of us being together. (there goes my bubble)
My answer (which i've thought about long and hard): Sorry, but i'm not available for a relationship right now (please note, i never mentioned being in a relationship with some else, nor did i say that he can't see his )
His reply: So when's the wedding date.
WTF!!!!!
needless to say i gave no reply to that and never heard from him again. (btw that was 3 weeks ago)
What does the bastard think, that i was waiting for him all these years to ask me to come back???? Mind you, a girl with two cannot possibly have anyone remotely interested in her. Not even to mention his romantic words when i told him i'm pregnant. Which was (and i quote) "Get the fuck out of my life, I don't want anything to do with you or the "
I came to the conclusion that he's lonely and have no life, so he must have thought, hey lets go back to the family i threw away all those years ago.
Now to end all this, i would just like to say: My couldn't have asked for better, they have everything a could want. Lots and lots of love, hugs and kisses. Sure we might still stay with my parents due to financial reasons, but at least they have a nice house, a mom who lives for them and grandparents and a uncle who adores them. They are being spoiled by absolutely everyone who meets them. What more could they ask for, they most definitaly do not need an idiot Dad who don't give a shit about them.
Wow, now that's out, you still awake???? Guess not.
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I am who i am
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Posted:Jun 18, 2008 1:28 pm
Last Updated:Nov 14, 2008 11:18 am
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My life sure has been a bit of a mess these last couple of months. However, after some searching, i've managed to finally discover myself.
I have accepted that I am who I am.
I'm Loud, I love the color black, I love everything that's unusual, i'm artsy fartsy, I've discovered that I'm an undercover Sokkie Sokkie Fan (hey i even had my first 'langarm' dance lesson at our last meet), I love my food (hey it's hard work to keep my BBW status, lol), I can be bitch sometimes, but I'm also caring (to such an extend that i tend to make everyone's problems my own), I like my alcoholic beverage on social occasions (i've also found out that i'm extremely gifted in the art of glass breaking), I'm a sexual person and not ashamed to admit it (hey I love sex, nothing more to say about that, lol), but most importantly i'm a gr8 mom to my twins and i personally think i'm doing a fine job at being mom and dad.
I guess all i want to say is, that i'm me and i don't give a damn what people say. For the first time in my life i'm accepting myself, strech marks and all
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