I BROKE THE RULES!
|
Posted:Apr 30, 2007 2:17 pm
Last Updated:Apr 1, 2009 5:25 am
22432 Views
|
So as you know I have been feeling a little BLAH as of late. Since Thursday actually.....
Hence the very short blogs.
Last nights great date did pick me up.
Sex only solves problems for so long....
Soon I was sad again.
Why?
Thursday, I 'BROKE THE RULES'.
My Rules
D's Rules
My 'Friends' Rules. (Lets call him Mike)
D and I have a very unique relationship.
My thirties brought my all ready high sex drive to an even higher level.
D's thirties slowed his already slow drive...down.
Now do not get me wrong, D still fucks me into the sheets till I pass out with glee. However, a month could pass without sex....he may not notice thinking it was a week.....
Can you see the problem here?
Still....we love each other so much, and our day to day lives and are very happy.
Originally, I joined Affairlook to find a friend for myself or to share with D.
We had a few dates, they went well and did spice up things for a moment or a week.
As any swinging clp knows....swinging is not a problem solver and by my choice, I dropped out off Affairlook for a while.
Lately I have returned to Affairlook:
D, in his trust for me took me off my f only leash; I am allowed to play with clp's and single men alone.
The Rules Are as follows:
1. No EX BF's
2. No Co-workers
3. No one in 'Our Work or Friend Circle'
4. No one I could develop attachment too
5. Discretion....he does not want it getting out that his GF is a swinger....
6. No one I know D would be uncomfortable with.
7. I keep him posted as to the who, when, where...no details needed.
8. NEVER on his evening off. That was his time with me and he was not sharing it.
Thursday I broke rule #4; and #7 for that matter.
I have had a big crush on my Pearl Necklace guy (Mike) since we met in October. The type of high school crush where you think about the person when they are not around. When they are...you can not resist the sideways glances. I have not had a crush like that in over a decade. Not even with D.
D perused me and I fell in love with him, madly in love at that. However, I fell in love slowly and accidentally while getting to know him. One day I woke up and just Knew....
He Was The Guy!Through eight years we have had our momnets, our breaks and our problems......
NEVER, has it crossed my mind that maybe I was wrong about that.
D knows of my feelings for the gentleman I speak of. I have always been point blank honest with D.
I told him, not ever expecting anything to cum of it. With me it is not what I tell you that you need to be scared of, it is what I do not say that should be a worry. I believe this to be the reason for D's unending trust in me. I lay it all out, he is my best friend after all. this may not work for everyone, but it does work for us.
He is a little jealous of Mike, I even caught him googling him one day. Mike has a high profile so D found several TV clps/BIOS and such. He said little, but I know he was jealous of my work contact with him. That was before Thursday! Imagine how D felt when I told him that I played with Mike. I would have been in trouble, except for the fact that Mike had moved a month previous and was only in town for a few days on business.
D said nothing about the matter.
I broke My rules because Mike is Married.
Happily at that; with a new born baby to boot.
It is not like he is a louse that does this all the time. He had never swayed before....
So, we did not have intercourse......
I dunno know, made since at the time. Or at least, I really wanted it too.
I am not be judgmental of married poeple playing on the side. I understand that their are sometimes circumstances. Like D and I, but maybe they can not talk to their partner, maybe they have young ...who am I to say. In the same sense there are also just selfish people who want more the easy way....
For this reason I choose not to involve myself in these situations. I do believe in what goes around comes around....
plus, I have found out about a 'an ongoing girl' in my partners life before.
It Hurt.
It Sucks!
I do not wish to be part of that pain for someone else.....
I do not choose to involve myself in this type of energy. Yet...here I am...blowing a married man!
To say I am disappointed in myself and my choices that night is to put it mildly.
Yet, I am not sure I would not do it again with that particular person.
I am more sure I would.
I have tended to take the higher ground even in business where it has hurt or hindered me because I would not play dirty. I do not talk about people maliciously, I do not make decisions to intentionally hurt people. I have always been proud of my character.
This week not so much .....
I guess I just chose to blog it to get it out in hopes of letting go.
I am going to sign out and delete his contact info and such....
Fuck
I Hate this!
I do not like feeling this way.
I must remember this next time i think about bending 'The Rules'.
|
|
|
1
comment
|
|
My First ORGASM....Uhmmm
|
Posted:Apr 15, 2007 7:57 pm
Last Updated:Apr 1, 2009 5:23 am
22369 Views
|
So I slipped into the bath tub, thinking about how I had no idea what I wanted to post on my blog. Which got me thinking of Affairlook.
I am very particular aboutwho I keep on messager.
I would have had to see a face pic and good photo of their torso and a nice hard cock. Cock photos where the cock is just waving in the air mean noting to me; a good hard cock photo, nicely shaved rising out against a nice torso and chest…while those photo drive me wild. Instantaneously WET! I mean throbbing cunt…WET WET WET! Thinking about some of these lovely cocks made me soo horny….I could not possibly wait to get out of the bathtub. I let some water out of the tub, slide my backside down along the base and positioned myself centered under the facet. I turned on a nice steady stream of water, allowing it to run gently over my throbbing cunt. OHHH! If I could tell you how good it felt. I worked myself up by repeatedly pulling back just before I peaked. I was sooo heated all over, my body must have been flushed with many tones of pink. Again, over and over …until I could not handle it any longer………
then…...uhmmm, relief.
Then like most shampoo bottles recommend…I rinsed and repeated…lol
With my mid twenties and my personal discovery of toys and Dlb AA batteries…this good old fashioned fix was a reminder of my pre battery operated days. Better yet, of my very first orgasmmmm. Which long as may have took me, brings us to my topic…Do You remember your first Orgasm? Your memories of this are of particular interest to me for a few reasons.
1. I was a late bloomer and am wondering where others fall in this category.
(I am guessing most were much younger then I, especially for men)
2. I am just a PERV…. and want to hear about your first big load or moment of total sexual relief.
My very first orgasm was when I was in grade 12. I grew up as a tom boy with very little to no interest in men. I spent my entire lunch and after school playing basket ball with the boys, not wanting to date them. I was also saving myself for marriage, no joke, I was sincere. Sure I had touched myself before, but outside of a slight pleasant tingling situation…it never proved worth the work.
Then…..one day….. I moved into a new apartment, with a great new bath tub. It was twice the size of a regular bathtub with a slanted back, making it easy to lay back against, nice Jacuzzi jets and a facet that hung wide out into the tub. One day for no particular reason I put my book down (I am a total bath tub reader). I slide my cunt down under the facet, just like I did today. Within moments I overwhelmed with a great heating sensation………my cunt throbbing in both surprise and anticipation. Then, a body shiver that left me both soo completely drained of energy and completely exhausted. At the same time I was ready and eager for more.
Eventually I left the bathroom. I can so vividly remember how I spent my entire weekend locked in my bedroom. I wanted more, I wanted to know more; I wanted to know what my body could respond too. Mostly….I just wanted more…lol
Coincidently enough my friends, I think that was the same day that I decided maybe I do not have to save myself for marriage. I even skipped school on Monday so I could have that extra day…locked away just masturbating.
Today was a pleasant sweet reminder of a gentle more innocent time for me. Seemed fitting for a post to my new blog. Why not start at the beginning. So, I ask you this my Affairlook friends….What do you remember about your first orgasm? Do you remember it at all?
Let me know!
Hugs & Kisses,
Cassy
|
|
|
7
Comments
|
|
To link to this blog (cassyleblanc) use [blog cassyleblanc] in your messages.
|
|
|
| Sun |
Mon |
Tue |
Wed |
Thu |
Fri |
Sat |
| |
|
|
|
1
|
2
|
3
|
4
|
5
|
6
|
7
|
8
|
9
|
101
|
11
|
12
|
13
|
14
|
15
|
16
|
17
|
18
|
19
|
20
|
21
|
22
|
23
|
24
|
25
|
26
|
27
|
28
|
29
|
30
|
31
|
|
