When is it Time to Give Up?
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Posted:Jan 25, 2014 10:32 pm
Last Updated:Mar 4, 2014 7:04 am
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I have been wondering for quite some time….When does one finally give up on LOVE?
I get so very tired of being wanted for sex….not love…..just sex.
I'm beginning to think I'm nothing more than a blow up doll.
It's hard when even your "friends" hit on you for a piece of ass.
After all I am a REAl person, I DO have feelings. And maybe, just maybe I DON'T find you sexually attractive and don't want to fuck you. But I would like to be your friend.
Oh course IF the person has a penis between his legs this is almost always a physical impossibility…..I really shouldn't say stuff like that as it comes back to bite me in the ass….but here lately.
I often times wonder about ……WHAT IF???
What IF….I quite looking for love, quite saving myself for someone special and went to full service instead of just giving massages?
How much of me would die a little bit each day?
How much does already?
I mean….most men have the "reaction" when they find out what I do….they figure i do it all already anyway…..so what's the use in trying to convince them otherwise?
Except for the fact….that I DON'T.
So do I just give up on the notion of finding LOVE and just be resolved in the fact that I bring pleasure to others.
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This is NOT the outer limits…..is it?
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Posted:Jan 15, 2014 7:54 pm
Last Updated:Mar 12, 2014 4:59 pm
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I haven't written much in a few days….and well something happened to me the other day…that quiet frankly I'm still trying to get my head around….or just trying to forget it happened. I haven't quiet figured out which one yet.
Any way …..I get this call from this guy for a massage …..lol the beginning of yet another unusual and interesting story….any way. This guy lives out in the country and after talking to him on the phone a couple days before…I had a feeling this guy had…issues.
I agree to meet him where apron he says "You girls are nuts , you know that, your F*cking crazy" …..[WARNING] Yeah, I know I'm crazy I reply.
So I get to his place, a friend of mine has the address and knows how long I am supposed to be gone.
I get there …and one of the first things out of his mouth is "I've never done this before…so you tell me. What are we supposed to do?" [WARNING]
"Ok, why don't we start with some towels, do you have any?"
He rummages around and finds some towels. I place one on the fold out sofa bed in the room that he has said would be the bed being used. [WARNING]
"Ok, why don't you get undressed and we'll get started" I said to him
"Your really a really cool chick, you know that…I mean it your real crazy" he goes on and on repeatedly….which I attribute to his !st time. So I get ready and get started on him I start rubbing oil on his back ….actually it was more of as soon as I touched him, he starts in….
"Do you have a guy in your life?" ….."I'm a good guy, I could love you." "What are you doing this for?" "You should move in with me and be my old lady."
I am politely deflecting most of his comments….but I'm NOT being rude, blunt, or just walking out….so
" Damit I LOVE you, you know that" he blurts out. I stopped looked down at him and said
"You don't even know me." this does not slow him…naw…
"How much do you pay to park your RV? You could park it here for free, I'd be good to you. You could live here for f*ucking free. You can stay here and be my old lady. Can't you see I love you. All you girls are all the same breaking guys hearts."
I felt sorry for the guy at this point.
"You don't love me" I said to him.
"Yes , yes I do, you just don't know how much I love you." he kept going on and on.
"You don't love me, your just smitten." I said to him
"Smitten?? What does that mean?" he asked
"It means you only THINK you love me. Trust me, I'm an expert on this." I told him.
This went on for another 30 minutes before I finally got out of there….A lot of what he had to say was desperation…but some of what he said was the bitter pill of life.
What was I doing?
Where am I going?
Would I be able to settle down with just one man?
I ask myself these same questions everyday…..BUT there has to be a mutual attraction. I spent too many years in an unhappy marriage….I would rather be alone than in a lop sided relationship.
Anyway…..this guy has been calling none stop since wanting me to be his old lady.
I feel sorry for this poor lonely guy, but THIS was way ……out there
*****UPDATE ALERT ****
Ok….I thought the previous behavior was bad enough…..HA.
This prized piece of humanity calls and texts me 2 days later that his atm card is missing and that I stole it and he is going to the cops IF I don't respond back to him.
So, I text him that I don't have his card and he should report it to the bank so they can put a trace on it and stop payment on it….not good enough he starts calling every 15 mins demanding I call him and talk to him or he is calling the cops on me…between telling me he loves me. I call him and FIRMLY but politely tell him "I don't have your card, I don't know where it is or who has it. You should report it and find out who does." and I hang up. He calls and leaves messages every 15 min for the next 12 hrs.
All saying the same things…..he loves me, he doesn't want to have to call the cops on me, if I don't call him back he is going to do me bodily harm…then back to he loves me.
OH the Drama…..the next day I am at a friends house telling him of the ordeal the last 12 hrs have been…..listening to the ranting voice mails on my phone….when he say let me see your phone…ok, I hand him the phone. My friend hit redial and calls this jerk wad up…who by this time is passed out from his drunken tirade.
My friend goes on and on to this guys voice mail about how I am an honest decent person, a LADY that he should consider himself lucky to have had the privilege of my company…..etc.
To make a long story short jerk wad calls back saying there was someone else who may have taken his atm and that the bank and authorities would be looking into it.
GOOD…..Let them do their jobs.
THEN…He calls back again asking why I won't pick up his calls…..he would really like to see me again sometime. And that he really loves my ass.
I'm GLAD …..he's the ONLY one like that I have encountered.
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Most Perverted Thing
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Posted:Jan 12, 2014 9:24 pm
Last Updated:Mar 4, 2014 7:09 am
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I am often asked what is the most perverted thing I have ever done……ERRRRR
This Week?? 
But seriously, the most perverted thing, that covers a LOT of ground….is this with a male…female….alone….with a group?
For the sheer shock value, I always say…strapping a guy in a sex club….I don't mention that I have done this numerous times, so for me it's just another Saturday night.
But what makes an act perverted?
Is it the act it's self or the person doing the act?
Say someone has a warped personality and they do something most would consider "normal"….would this be considered a perverted act?
Or is it just acts society deems perverted?
I think about this stuff WAY to much….What makes a deviant …nature or nurture??
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MuM's the Word
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Posted:Jan 8, 2014 11:02 am
Last Updated:Mar 4, 2014 7:12 am
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This is an on-going issue for me ….How much do you tell people?
I have found, especially on the road, it is better to keep a low profile. Most of the people in the RV parks are retired vanilla folks. And well, I'm ANYTHING but vanilla.
Of course being a single female, I get the looks….It is very UNCOMFORTABLE walking into a function at one of these places. The husbands are are OoGgLling me and the wives are giving me the stink eye…..can't win for loosing so I don't go to too many functions.
Not to mention the whole…."What do you do for a living?" question. And depending on the person or persons asking the question…I may or may not actually tell them.
It also depends how long I'm going to be at any one given place. I mean if I'm going to be gone the next day or so why not….but if your going to be there for a couple of months, well then discretion is in order.
State parks are great if you want to have a good time and not worry about gossip. Buddy likes the state parks better too….usually more room and Trees.
I had dinner the other night and let it slip out what I do for a living…I have since had dinner again with this individual and he had quite a few FALSE preconceived notions as to what I do….that I had to politely but firmly correct.
And yes this was a narrow minded vanilla guy from the midwest ……I should learn….ducks fly with ducks…..geese with geese….and freaks with freaks.
The minute it slipped and I saw his reaction…..I knew, I had made a mistake.
When they ask…I usually wait till they are taking a drink of something …then tell….see if they choke on their drink or not. An educated, experienced individual will not choke, but have a sly smile on his lips as he sips his drink. 
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Ok…so I get this DICK pic..
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Posted:Jan 6, 2014 6:16 pm
Last Updated:Jan 7, 2014 4:44 am
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How many of you guys start off a conversation with a female by sending her a pic of your little buddy?
You can't imagine how many times this happens to US (females). You want to meet for dinner or drinks and you send a dick pic??? Excuse ME but is this how I am going to recognize you in a public place? Are you going to whip it out in front of the door and show it to every single female to see IF she recognizes it and says…"Oh you must be (fill in the blank)__________, my date of the evening!"
By NOW you should be laughing….long, hard and loud as this is pretty ridiculous. But it happens ALL the time. Most women won't call you down on it, they will just ignore your email, and pic.
MOST women want to see a face pic, one with a smile is preferable ….a fairly clutter free background is good also. We don't want to see your pig sty…if you get that far we will see it soon enough.
Also….a good opening line when you meet is NOT……"I have A.D.D and only have 2 looks." If you have issues, keep it to yourself, at least until after dinner.
Some of this stuff is pretty basic, but if your wondering why that dick pic isn't getting you the action from FEMALES you were hoping for….try a face pic….or a car, bike, boat, dream vacation….anything else.
And say something…..even if it's stupid….Most women will IGNORE a cheesy one-liners like "Let's Fuck" or "Wassup" But if you can make a woman laugh….your in like Flin!
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Happy Birthday to a New Year
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Posted:Jan 4, 2014 6:40 am
Last Updated:Jan 5, 2014 5:41 am
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Good bye to the old year hello to the new…and with it another Birthday. I typically hate my birthday as it is usually such a disappointment. Being just after the holidays, who wants to go out and party??
But this year I feel differently, maybe it's because this year will be different…I'm NOT in Austin with the same old….same old. No joint parties ( I have a friend who's B-day is 2 days after mine we usually have a party together). No, this year will be for ME, and just for ME.
My birthday is tomorrow the 5th and I don't have a clue as to what I will be doing..who knows? I may have a hot date or I could be spending the time alone with Buddy….the possibilities are endless.
I would like to go out for a nice evening out….I would like to find a new lover….there are so many things I would like.
Maybe this is the year I will find….what I seek!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
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Sextortution
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Posted:Jan 2, 2014 9:09 am
Last Updated:Jan 3, 2014 7:17 am
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How many times have you used sex to extort something from someone else?
Granted sometimes it can be innocent….."For a kiss".
But when does it cross the line?
"I'll help you out if you sleep with me?"
Many guys will go "HUH??" at this point….because for them that's the way it is, one hand washes the other. You want MY help…..then you need to help me out, take your clothes off and spread 'em.
I can tell you from personal experience…this line gets real old…real fast.
And being the type of person I am……It usually doesn't work. If I don't want to have sex with you, then why would you want to try to force me to by means of sextortution?
I usually don't ask others for help, because I have found out through experience the strings it comes with are usually a higher price than if you just figure out how to do it yourself.
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Sexy, Sensual and STD Free
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Posted:Dec 30, 2013 3:30 pm
Last Updated:Jan 4, 2014 6:20 am
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In this day and age of so many STD's…..How safe is your sex?
I recently had a falling out with a friend of mine over a bareback blow job….I'm sorry but oral sex can and does spread STD's….look at all the cervical throat cancer on the news. OK….climbing down off the soap box…..but before I do….ask yourself.
How safe is the sex I am having?
How big of a priority do I hold my own personal safety?
I mean….do you care if you may get herpes from that blow job? So many don't even think about these things.
Me being a TOTAL germ- a -phoebe….I ALWAYS practice safe sex and cover everything.
But many fail to realize, safe can be fun, erotic, even sexy….it can enhance the moment …prolong the fun.
I mean it is so much fun putting a condom on,,,,,getting the cock hard enough….rolling it down…….I'm drooling thinking about it.
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The Wit & Wisedom of a Free Spirit
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Posted:Dec 30, 2013 8:34 am
Last Updated:May 12, 2024 3:6 pm
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Thanks to the Readers who have given me positive strokes for posting MY adventures on my blog. It's funny, but before I left out….I was asked IF I would be writing a book  NOW there's a thought!!
When I was married, my X was a lump, he didn't want to go anywhere or do anything…SO my 1st self resolution was I was going to LIVE…do all the wild and crazy things I always wanted to do. And well since then I have been….hence I have a stock pile of stories of…..lol….adventures, conquests, failures….and even a few of love.
I used to think I had a really dull and boring life, and I guess when I was married to a slug I did…..but NOT anymore. Now I have the kind of life…..well I hear the word WOW an awful lot when I talk to others about ….life.
My life isn't perfect….I'm still looking for….the mysterious "IT" ….aren't we ALL?
But I have fun, make fun….inspire fun…wherever I can. And that's what makes life the adventure it is….ENJOY fun where you find it
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Plans for a NEW Year
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Posted:Dec 28, 2013 6:22 am
Last Updated:Dec 28, 2013 6:44 pm
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WoW…..What a week this has been for me. Emotional, freeing and uplifting. Some of it wasn't some of it was rather sad, but…..life moves on and so am I.
I finally freed myself of the ties that bind so to speak….I got out of a BAD sublet situation with a now ex-friend.
It is so true you should never lend money to friends and in a lot of cases you shouldn't save your friends from financial disaster by giving them the shirt off your back. Cause nine times out of ten they will wipe their ass with it…then hand it back to you to get rid of for them.
But now I'm free from the drama…the worry…I don't have to keep looking over my shoulder wondering if my credit is going down the drain because of someone else's slacker ways.
I have started thinking about where to next…..I've gotten quite a few suggestions!!
I have a few vague destinations in mind….things, places I want to see in the spring.
But if you know of a MUST SEE destination…..PLEASE by all means drop me a line.
And being a true Southern Belle…..I got my black-eyed peas for NEW YEARS, to go with my cornbread and pork rib-eyes. Can you say YUMMY
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Happy Holidays
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Posted:Dec 24, 2013 8:00 am
Last Updated:Dec 24, 2013 4:14 pm
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Funny how things change…..It USED to be we would say "Merry Christmas" no matter what religion we were….NOW it is P.I. (politically incorrect) to say this so the alternate non -religious HAPPY HOLIDAYS has taken it's place.
What are your plans for the day?
Mine is to recapture my freedom….I will be spending the day driving to Austin to tend to some matters I have been putting off for far to long.
I did manage to get Eric's present in the mail last week….so who knows maybe he will get it by the 25th.
I sent him a pair of riding gloves to replace the ones Buddy ate. And you know it's really funny, but I felt so much better after I sent them….the weight of this karmic debt was weighing heavy on me.
I read several articles about karmic debt….and began to realize ….sending the gloves was something I needed to do, to be able to move forward in a positive way.
Maybe the same way…he needed to come to Yellowstone to meet me…he had made a promise to me we would meet…somewhere. I had made a promise to him to replace the gloves.
As the end of the year draws near…and the promise of a new one just ahead. I try to get things wrapped up so I can start anew in 2014…..Maybe it will be MY LUCKY YEAR
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Kinky on the Coast
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Posted:Dec 23, 2013 5:06 pm
Last Updated:Jan 3, 2014 7:19 am
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I have been here a while…and while here I've been working. Mostly giving massages, but some of those guys….LOL…they want anything butt.
There was this one guy had a condo (a really nice one) looked out over the water. He wants to book 1.5 hrs and for me to bring my table…so I say ok. I get parked and lug my table up to the 4th fl. He lets me in and I set up in the living room…nice view.
He strips and hops on the table face down…I start to massage him, and next thing I know he's wiggling his butt and asking questions….lots of them. He wants to know how kinky I will get with him. We start talking and he wants to know if I squirt…yeah.
Why, oh why did I tell him that???
He goes into hyper drive…he wants a prostate massage, then he wants me to stand over him on the table and squirt on him while he jacks off…..Ummmm…care for an order of fries with that Mister.
So me being the professional in fantasy fulfillment that I am….LOL
I give the guy a world class prostate massage, if he hadn't been so drunk he would have blown his load….but he didn't….darn!!
So up on the table I climb with dildo in hand and stand over this BOZO, who is now laying on his back face up. And I try to clear my mind and get turned on, which is not easy standing over this guy on top of a massage table….I had to put my greasy hand on the celling to steady myself…..but I managed to squirt on him while he jacked off….YEAH!!!!!
Fantasy full filled…..I'm there 2 hrs….He pays me for 1 hr.
Which is not surprising as "affluenza" is a common illness nowadays ….there has even been studies done at Berkley on it's affect on society.
I just wonder who is going to have to clean the greasy hand print off the ceiling?
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Home?
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Posted:Dec 22, 2013 8:03 am
Last Updated:Dec 24, 2013 12:23 pm
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I guess the old saying "You can never go back home" is true in more ways than imaginable.
I made it back to Austin, stopped at a friends house for the night, while I made arrangements to put my RV in the shop. Mainly for an oil change and minor repair work..it would be in the shop a couple of days. Buddy and I were supposed to stay at my GF's house. Lol…this was not to happen.
The first night I was at her place, Buddy barked when I went to get his food bowl. Buddy was no longer welcome at her house, I needed to find someplace else to keep Buddy. So….I take Buddy to the apt (which my gf has sublet from me..apt is still in my name) ….She freaks over this. There is no pet deposit, and she will get charged if the mgmt finds him…in apt. Poor Buddy….he spent the next couple of days in the back of my car, when we weren't at the park. I slept on the floor of the apt.
Then my GF gets upset about Buddy being in my car….WTF??? BITCH….I can't keep him at her place….I can't keep him at the apt….NOW I can't keep him in MY CAR….Just where am I supposed to keep him UP MY ASS??
Needless to say the whole situation was MOST upsetting and disturbing as she was the one wanting me to stay and bring Buddy.
As soon as my RV was ready, Buddy and I were back in it and heading down the road to the coast away from the psycho drama of Austin.
I found a very nice park to stay at on the Coast….everyone here is friendly and they LIKE Buddy. It may not be home, but for now it's the next best thing.
I may never go back to Austin to live…I certainly have some friendship reevaluation to do as I get things back in order.
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