My Inner Voice is SHOUTING at me- make it stop!
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Posted:Oct 1, 2013 12:25 am
Last Updated:Dec 5, 2013 11:23 pm
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My inner voice has been shouting at me which is why my blog and I have been on the quiet side. I am so angry. Mostly at myself for not being able to deal with things better than I am. I really struggled with the decision as to whether I should write this post, or not.
My friends know that I have been dealing with an illness for the past two years. To make a long story short -- multiple knee replacements, multiple infections, so much physical therapy and so much pain. My body is just not cooperating and has not healed the way it should. This has left me with chronic pain and the depression that goes with it.
The past six weeks or so have been especially difficult for me. It feels as though I take three steps forward and then nine steps backward.
Needless to say, I am discouraged. I am so tired. I don't know how much fight I have left inside.
Which leads me to why I am writing this (I know, sounds like a pity party and in a way, it is). I wanted to share what this experience has taught me.
It has taught me that:
1. I am stronger than I ever realized.
2. I know my body better than the doctors do.
3. How much I love and appreciate my family and my friends.
4. How a person's life is changed by the presence of constant and chronic pain.
5. How a disability affects a person
6. How to use alternative methods to deal with pain
7. How lonely it is to be isolated and not working
8. and...God must not have Heaven quite ready for me yet (smiles)
9. (oh, a sense of humor is invaluable)
I can list positives and negatives for each of the above numbered items (and I am sure there are many that I missed).
I am a fighter.....I am not giving up. I will dig deep within myself to find the reserve I need to keep putting one foot in front of the other (figuratively and literally) lol.
There is a reason why I am still here ~~ it just hasn't been revealed to me yet. Which is another reason for my quietness...I have been meditating and praying....and listening for a reply - looking for a sign.
Thanks for listening (reading) and for caring!
hugs and kisses,
Voice
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Party in Cloud Nine tonight............8pm CST
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Posted:Sep 24, 2013 10:49 am
Last Updated:Mar 31, 2014 7:34 pm
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Tonight is the night -- our 2nd Annual Fall Festival in Cloud Nine (group room). Please come and say Hello to Sweet_VM and myself....along with a host of others.
We will have a DJ so there will be music and dancing. There will also be drinks and food.
This is a "virtual" party but it is a party, nonetheless. You will have fun!
Hope to see you there! The party begins at 8pm CST but will be going for several hours.
Hope to see you all there!!!!
We are giving this bling to all who attend the party:
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You Are Invited.....!!!!
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Posted:Sep 19, 2013 6:45 pm
Last Updated:Sep 24, 2013 10:45 am
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Hello everyone! You are all invited to the 2nd Annual Fall Fling in my group chat room, Cloud Nine. It is being held this coming Tuesday, Sept 24th, beginning at 8pm CST.
We are having two guest DJ's so there will be music and dancing along with other frivolity and fun. We will be celebrating many birthdays we've missed this summer so there will also be birthday spankings.
This is an "online party". We also have a special bling that was made for us by bent_whistle that will be given to all who attend the party!
If you have any questions, please drop me a line or leave a question here and I will get back to you with an answer. I hope to see you all there!
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Hello!
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Posted:Sep 14, 2013 6:44 pm
Last Updated:Sep 20, 2013 10:22 pm
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Hi Friends, Yes, I am still alive! But I have had a serious case of writer's block. So....when I have an idea I will be writing again. Until then, I just might be on the quiet side.
Have missed you all though.
Hugs and kisses!
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Being Mindful and Living In The Moment
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Posted:Sep 2, 2013 12:12 pm
Last Updated:Oct 1, 2013 8:25 pm
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The past two years have been especially difficult for me. Those of you who are my friends know this all too well. It has been and is hard for me to grasp that worrying doesn't help. I know that it doesn't, but yet I couldn't stop worrying.
It has taken me this long and with so many dear friends telling me that I need to live for TODAY, not for the past and not for the future. This means letting go of the past hurts and disappointments (but not the good memories). This means to stop worrying about what may or may not happen in the future. There's not anything I can do. If bad things are going to happen, they will just happen and then I will deal with them. If they don't happen, well then I would have spent all this time worrying and not enjoying the moment which is here now -- called TODAY.
This song says it much more eloquently than I ever could. It is called: Living In The Moment and is by Jason Mraz. Please read the lyrics -- listen to the song on You Tube. And, if it applicable to you, try living in the moment. I am. (trying that is...will take some practice but I will make it).
"Living In The Moment" - (Jason Mraz)
If this life is one act
Why do we lay all these traps?
We put them right in our path
When we just wanna be free
I will not waste my days
Making up all kinds of ways
To worry about all the things
That will not happen to me
So I just let go of what I know I don't know
And I know I'll only do this by
Living in the moment
Living our life
Easy and breezy
With peace in my mind
With peace in my heart
Peace in my soul
Wherever I'm going, I'm already home
Living in the moment
I'm letting myself off the hook for things I've done
I let my past go past
And now I'm having more fun
I'm letting go of the thoughts
That do not make me strong
And I believe this way can be the same for everyone
And if I fall asleep
I know you'll be the one who'll always remind me
To live in the moment
To live my life
Easy and breezy
With peace in my mind
With peace in my heart
Got peace in my soul
Wherever I'm going, I'm already home
I can't walk through life facing backwards
I have tried
I tried more than once to just make sure
And I was denied the future I'd been searching for
But I spun around and hurt no more
By living in the moment
Living my life
Easy and breezy
With peace in my mind
With peace in my heart
Got peace in my soul
Wherever I'm going, I'm already home
I'm living in the moment
I'm living my life
Just taking it easy
With peace in my mind
Got peace in my heart
Got peace in my soul
Oh, wherever I'm going, I'm already home
I'm living in the moment
I'm living my life
Oh, easy and breezy
With peace in my mind
Peace in my heart
Peace in my soul
Wherever I'm going, I'm already home
I'm living in the moment
** I sincerely wish all the best for everyone who reads this and hope that you too will try to live in the moment.
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Just wondering where the "fixers" are?
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Posted:Sep 1, 2013 6:57 pm
Last Updated:Sep 5, 2013 8:14 pm
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I was listening to the CD I bought last night (Jason Mraz, Love is a Four Letter Word) and heard this song. I played it four times in a row -- the lyrics hitting home: "Well, I wish I was a fixer. I would fix you up inside". I am reprinting the lyrics below. Go to You Tube and listen to the song if you have not already heard it.
And, if you are a fixer, please let me know.
"Frank D Fixer" (Jason Mraz - Love is a Four Letter Word)
Frank D. Fixer was a handyman
He could handle anything; he was my granddad
He grew his own food and he could fix his own car
I watched it all happen in our backyard
He'd reinvent the part to fix the broken home
He'd restore the heart
Well I wish I was a fixer
I would fix you up inside
I would build you a town if the world fell down
I wish I was that guy
Well if Frank D. Fixer were alive today
Well he may laugh at me or he may have a lot to say
Well he might ask that I keep working for the family
To keep the bills all paid and be his protégé
What happened to the ground right where we are?
What happened to the family farm?
Well I wish I was a fixer
I would fix you up inside
I would build you a town if the world fell down
I wish I was that guy
Every evening breaking bread
He showed us who a real man is
No matter what my grandma said
He would never lose his head
Well I wish I was a fixer
I would fix you up inside
I would build you a town if the world fell down
I wish I was that guy
Well I wish I was a farmer
I would grow you a Garden of Eden
And I would bless our family with the gifts that granddad handed me
How wonderful that would be
Baby I'll make that guy be me
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Friday Funnies......Start your day with a smile or laugh!
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Posted:Aug 30, 2013 1:23 am
Last Updated:Aug 31, 2013 8:24 pm
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1. A husband and wife are trying to set up a new password for their computer. The husband puts, "Mypenis," and the wife falls on the ground laughing because on the screen it says, "Error. Not long enough."
2. A mother is in the kitchen making dinner for her family when her walks in. “Mother, where do babies come from?” The mother thinks for a few seconds and says, “Well dear, Mommy and Daddy fall in love and get married. One night they go into their bedroom, they kiss and hug, and have sex.” The looks puzzled so the mother continues, “That means the daddy puts his penis in the mommy’s vagina. That’s how you get a baby, honey.” The seems to comprehend. “Oh, I see, but the other night when I came into your room you had daddy’s penis in your mouth. What do you get when you do that?” “Jewelry, my dear. Jewelry.”
3. A little boy caught his mom and dad having sex. After, he asked, "What were you and daddy doing?" The mom said, "We were baking a cake." A few days later, the little boy asked his mom, "Were you and daddy baking a cake?" She said yes, and asked him how he knew. He answered, "Because I licked the frosting off the couch."
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Sexting Gone Wrong........
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Posted:Aug 23, 2013 10:26 am
Last Updated:Aug 28, 2013 8:03 pm
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Sexting - the newest way to turn someone on (or off)...as the case may be, lol.
I found some funny examples of this......
(please feel free to add some of your own)
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I was wondering.....what is the correct response?
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Posted:Aug 23, 2013 9:29 am
Last Updated:Aug 24, 2013 9:43 am
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I was wondering what the correct response is (if there is one), to the phrase:
"What the HELL ???"
** I need to explain. No one said this to me. I have found myself saying it to myself....and have heard others say it as well, mostly to themselves or as a result of something (i.e., glitches on this site) **
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Crazy things that make sex better
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Posted:Aug 20, 2013 1:54 am
Last Updated:Aug 30, 2013 8:06 pm
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Lots of things can improve your sex life, but some of them can be strange, scary and very surprising. Here are 10 shocking things that can make your sex life fantastic: (listed in no particular order)
1. Embracing your booty
You may hate your big behind, but the chances are he secretly loves it. Although a lot of women want smaller butts, research has found that men are attracted to bigger rears because they signal a woman’s fertility.
2. The Swiss-ball
It turns out that the most fun piece of gym equipment around can also improve your sex life. Guys, you should do Swiss-ball press-ups, whilst girls you should use the Swiss ball to do kegels and ball squeezes. This will strengthen your pelvic floor muscles.
3. Having another birthday
If you want better sex then it’s time to have another birthday as researchers have found that older people have better sex. They cite better body image, more confidence and a stronger relationship as being the key reasons older people have better sex.
4. Sucking toes
For many the thought of someone else’s feet makes them queasy, but to a lot of people feet are a big, big turn on. In fact, feet are the most popular fetish, so even if you don’t think you like your partner’s toes maybe it’s time you give them a little attention – you may be surprised.
5. Celery
The time when a salad was a food for girls is gone fellers, and if you want to improve your sex life you better start chomping on the green stuff. Celery releases pheromones when you eat it that turn you on, and in turn makes you more attractive to women.
6. Sex bans
Denying yourself for short periods will give you a great build up and when you do finally indulge, the sex will be amazing. If you can’t manage a sex ban, instead use the no-touch rule, where you can’t touch your bed buddy, unless you use a “tool”, like a scarf or a feather.
7. Hugging
Research suggests that the closer a couple feels to each other the more sex they have. Hugging increases your oxytocin levels – the hormone that makes us feel intimate with the person we’re hugging. So if you want more loving, get cuddling.
8. Scars
Although scars may make you think of pirates, apparently women love them. Men with mild facial scars were ranked as more attractive. For those guys who want a long-term girl though, scars are not the thing to go for. Women said men with scars were not marriage material.
9. Long legs
We all know that men love long legs, but it seems women like their guys to have a giraffe-like pair of pins too. People whose legs are 5% longer than average are considered more attractive. So if you want more sex invest in some high heeled shoes.
10. Chocolate
Not many people need an excuse to tuck into some chocolate, but if you are one of those people then remember that a few squares of dark chocolate can boost both your energy levels and your mood; in turn this will improve your sex life.
Source: Real.Buzz.com Healthy, Active, Living
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Can You Help Me Find This Toy.....Please???
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Posted:Aug 19, 2013 1:12 pm
Last Updated:Aug 20, 2013 9:49 pm
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I saw the picture below and want this toy. I have been looking online and have found something similar (kind of)...but it is NOT the same.
I really want this toy to add to my collection -- can you help me find where to buy one?
After I have the toy, I will have to find someone to use it on me (or to use it on)!
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Counting Condoms
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Posted:Aug 17, 2013 7:19 pm
Last Updated:Aug 19, 2013 1:13 pm
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Counting Condoms
A boy goes to the drug store with his dad and sees the condom display.
Boy: "Dad, why do they do packs of one condom?"
Dad: "Those are for the high-schoolers for Friday nights."
Boy: "So, why do they make packs of three?"
Dad: "For the college guys for Friday, Saturday and Sunday nights."
Boy: "Then why do they make packs of 12?"
Dad: "Those are for married couples -- you know, January, February, March."
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