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Randomly Remembering That I Blog Here...? : Hi ya'll. Welcome back. Oh yea, you didn't go anywhere...I did. Can I hear a big "Hell Yea!" if you know what I mean when I say that this year has just been one great big cluster fuck of stress? Anybody else ready for that fabulous vacation from EVERYTHING where all ya have to do is lay on a sun kissed beach and drink happy umbrella drinks all day? (Is there such a thing???) Oh don't get me wrong, it's not all been bad, in fact there's been some pretty kick ass happy happening too, but stress is stress and I'm tired. Set the date...I'm ready. 1. My daddy died and though it was not a sudden thing, it was still a pretty devastating hit. It's funny how you can fully acknowledge that you want the best for those you love, and you can even embrace that the best might mean saying goodbye, it still hits you like a ton of bricks. My style of mouring leans towards the "make yourself as busy as possible so you don't have to feel" side, but I'm learning quickly that you can only be so busy and eventually you have to pay the piper and deal with the feeling. Thank God I have incredible friends in my life who know how to catch me when I fall. (*Thank you*) 2. I became a Grammy...  ..., ok, well actually I became a "Gellee", which is short for Granma Ellee. (Wow...I just outed my name, so shhhhhh...don't tell ok?). While I have no problem being called Grammy, my & in law thought I should have a different name because, well, I'm different than the other potential granma's. (Imagine that?) I gotta tell you it doesn't matter what my lil man grows up and calls me, I am completely head over heels in love with this baby and have no idea how something so little can so completely own me. He has "laughing eyes", the kind that look at you so intently you know he's reading your soul and when he finds what he's looking for he breaks out in a huge face splitting grin. I seriously can't wait to hear the belly laugh that's gonna pour out of his little mouth. (See? I told you I was smitten...) He was born 16 days after my Daddy passed and I can't help but believe that they met somewhere in the middle. (*I believe, I believe, I believe*)3. I broke my tailbone, and because I'm such a "never do anything half assed" kinda person, I actually broke it in two places and while people laugh when you tell them, I can tell you there is absolutely nothing funny about a broken ass. You'd be amazed at the many different things your tailbone is attached to. Traveling between Virgina, North Carolina and Georgia with a broken ass is not overly high on my list of fun things to do, but you know, you do what you have to do when you have to do it...right? I finally broke down and had a nerve block procedure done which gave me relief and a whole new respect for pain management doctors. (*God Bless them one and all*) 4. Three weeks after my lil man was born, two days after his daddy had to go back to Afghanistan, one day after Gellee drove back to VA...my 's house suffered a major fire. The miracle in all of this is that my two most precious beings were not home at the time, and though a fire is pretty devastating, things CAN be replaced. The second miracle in all of this is that my and lil man are now staying with me until the house is repaired, and my in law was sent home one month early from Afghanistan safe and sound. (*Thank you God for keeping him safe for the last 10 months*) 5. Finally, and most random of all, I may actually have met someone who totally rocks my world. Really. In the most random and ironic of ways. I'll hold off on that story for a bit...it's all still kinda new and scary in a completely wonderful way. Wow. I'm not sure I ever believed I could let that happen, but ya know, he didn't ask he just kinda slipped right in under all the crazy and set up house in my heart. Not sure how it's all gonna play out, there are obstacles, but at least now I know my heart is no longer afraid. Ok, maybe just a little, but I'm still moving forward and bravely stomping on the lil bastard demons who keep trying to pop up from the past. (*Bruised & broken CAN heal*) I missed summer this year...and winter seems to be breathing down my back at a much faster pace than usual; but, I'm still STANDING, and living, and breathing and looking forward to a new year full of possibilities. Possibilities, now isn't that a lovely word...? Tell me true, what possibilities ae you looking forward to? (*Breathe out a big ole cleansing **sigh** with me now*) Oh yea...and one thing I DID accomplish...I became a QUITTER. I'm officially a "non-smoker" now. (*Miracles truly never cease*) I make mistakes, I am out of control & at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best. ~Marilyn |
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Well ... HELL YEAH!  ... And well, 'ya know. I just let things "be." Que sera, sera. It's working out beautifully; don't'cha think?  / *love you and the whole clan* /  This is my blog - [blog _Safira]. There are many like it, but this one is mine. RECOMMENDED READING: A F F The Only Site For Me
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"Can I hear a big "Hell Yea!" if you know what I mean when I say that this year has just been one great big cluster fuck of stress? Anybody else ready for that fabulous vacation from EVERYTHING where all ya have to do is lay on a sun kissed beach and drink happy umbrella drinks all day? (Is there such a thing???) Oh don't get me wrong, it's not all been bad, in fact there's been some pretty kick ass happy happening too, but stress is stress and I'm tired. Set the date...I'm ready" Oh Hell Yeah! I heard that! It's definitely been a downer of a year, with bright spots mixed in. Of course, there's always someone who's had a worse time of it.~Gives Pixie squinty look~ Just so ya know it could always be worse. Life goes on...  "You can't fix stupid...."
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Jesus christ... That's just a little bit of stress. Happy to hear things turned out OK though. Congrats on grandbaby! and on being a quitter! Most of my patients are COPDers and lung cancer pts. You don't want any part of that shit, let me tell you. Plus now you will have grandkids to run around after- can't be wheezing while playing tag. Not a good look. Keep it up. It took my dad 8 years and 7 tries to quit before he finally did it. Not easy.
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Never......EVER...stop believing....may your days be filled with the sounds of love E. Rob “I am not a teacher, but an awakener” Robert Frost
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Hemliines can only go down so far and then they start back up again...so goes the waves on planet earth. Oh yeah...it has been a hell of a year. It's GOT to get better! In the meantime..................you know it will. I know it will. Sending you love and thunderous applause for becoming a non-smoker over the past year! Good thing too as all restaurants & clubs in VA will be non-smoking as of Dec. 1 Hope 2CU soon! xo Love from your Mother Goddess Just a little food for thought............. If you really want to be happy, nobody can stop you... {=}
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