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Great Loves Demands Great Sacrifice....
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Great Loves Demands Great Sacrifice.... She is gone. No more wildly wiggling body to greet me at the door. No more happy squeals and snorts to vocalize how much she missed me while I was at work. No more "drive-by licks" at random times just to let me know she loved me. No more wet nose in my face because I quit rubbing her sooner than she thought I should. No more warm body cuddling up to me and keeping me safe as I sleep. No more warm caramel eyes looking at me with total love and adoration...never expecting more than that I love her back. Ok...and that I feed her and give her ridiculous amounts of treats. I miss her so much it hurts physically. I had sincerely hoped that we'd have more time together, in fact, I had convinced myself that I would go in the history books as being the owner of the longest living Rotti. But that was not to be, and when the cancer moved in, it moved in fast. Putting your best friend down is perhaps the hardest thing in the world to do, but I owed her no less. The tumors had started popping up all over the nerve line and the pain meds lost the ability to ease the pain she tried so hard to hide. I promised her when we started this journey that I would not let her suffer...and yet I found myself second guessing myself and the Vet, not wanting to let go. Letting go sucks. So last Thursday, when I realized I could no longer deny her the peace she needed, the Vet was called and agreed come by on her way home and give her that peace. I am blessed that my Vet is the person she is, she made it as easy for both of us as is possible. So here's to My Maggie...my constant companion for 11.5 years who filled my heart and life with more love than I could have ever imagined on the day I picked her up from the SPCA. She was my gift from God when my heart was so broken and just like she used to sneak in my bed at night after I went to sleep, she snuck right into my heart and for that I am completely grateful. If God truly does love us, and truly has a heaven for humans, then I know in my heart that he has one for dogs too, and I know that she'll find her way to a comfy couch where Angel hands will constantly touch and rub her…because those of us that knew her, knew how much she loved being touched. Perhaps in time, she will send a Molly or a Chloe my way...another lil soul with a wet tongue and a huge heart...and perhaps I will fall in love all over again. For though the pain of losing her is immense, I would not trade those years I had with her for anything, and I only pray that I am half the person she always believed me to be. Robert Louis Stevenson said it best... "She is your friend, your partner, your defender, your dog. You are her life, her love, her leader. She will be yours, faithful & true, to the last beat of her heart. You owe it to her to be worthy of such devotion. You think dogs will not be in heaven? I tell you, they will be there long before any of us." I make mistakes, I am out of control & at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best. ~Marilyn |
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11/10/2008 3:44 pm |
I'm sorry Pix, I knew you were going through it when you didn't answer your cell thursday night and I have to tell you this, I hope it eases you a bit but when we lose a pet they become our gaurdians along with the angles who watch over us on the otherside. I really do believe that. I had a siamese cat I found a long time ago for a fraction of the time you had Maggie and I still think about his meowin ass with such affection. you gonna be alright, you know where I am if ever you wanna yap with me    roaming the cyber streets of blogland  
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Ya know, each time I have to put one down I swear I will never get another one. We both know how that goes. You'll know when it's the right time, and you know there are a bunch out there that need someone like you. Have tongue, will use it. Repeatedly.
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We are so sorry... It is the worst thing about dogs...when they have to go away.. I do hope you and find some peace in the days ahead... You kept the faith. the promise. It is a hard time for sure, but remember the good days Maggie... godspeed
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Little darling.....I am SO sorry. I haven't been on here in eons...and just stopped by to see how you are doing. I have had to make that decision twice in my life to put a beloved dog down. And even though I knew it was the best to do for her...it nearly killed me. Just know I still think of you often...and I'm a phone call away if you need me. 
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Sorry to hear that 
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she knew you loved her and she transitioned loving you ,,,,and she doesn't hurt anymore... sending you and maggie love always Just a little food for thought............. If you really want to be happy, nobody can stop you... {=}
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I have walked in your shoes, my condolences. It is very painful. I'm facing a similar situation but I'm not sure if the state will let me put down my teenagers. [blog talldarkavg1]
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I AM PROFOUNDLY sorry to read of Maggie dear................I'm such a bad friend “I am not a teacher, but an awakener” Robert Frost
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