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Just a Funk ~
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Ohhhh...Granny. i knew we had this in common. I am sorry for the both of us. Yup numbing is the word...and since i lost the 3 of them within 4 yrs...i couldnt process one before the next happened. Crazy stuff and is why i am still reeling at times. Yet...its a new month and its always a breath at a time for me. Im thinking of you and wish you well girlie. Thanks for your thoughts~~
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I'm lately finding out lately sharing the memories make them more sweet, rather than bittersweet. With my child, it's about the most important thing I can pass on to her. hugs
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I'm so sorry to hear of your loneliness. My parents are long gone too but I still have my older brothers...they don't live in Ireland but we talk on the phone a lot. I shall miss them if they go first. Huge hugs. 
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Hi jajo696 I feel the pain and the love thanks for sharing be safe Barbra Streisand - "The Way We Were" Memories light the corners of my mind Misty water-colored memories of the way we were Scattered pictures of the smiles we left behind Smiles we gave to one another for the way we were
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i am sorry you feel orphaned. i lost my birth family to death and was adopted at five. i was really close to my dad. when he died i went through an 11 month clinical depression. i don't know why i didn't ask for help sooner. i was regularly seeing a psychiatrist. so i don't remember if i just didn't tell her how badly things were going... but it lifted. and i haven't had a crash until dealing with COVID isolation. i hope you can find friends to be your new family. and bask in your memories of love to blanket you when you feel alone. i don't know if you believe in such things but one day i did a reiki treatment... and my ancestral spirits contacted me to let me know they were gone from this plane but love me eternally. it makes being an orphan a bit less sad for me.
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10/10/2020 5:12 am |
I am so sorry to hear of your losses . Hugs . Unfortunately you are right about the unavoidable part and pray for it to never happen. I lost both my parents in 1999 my mother in January and my Father in December before Christmas . Not alone yet but being the youngest of 6 always kind of made me feel lonely . Huggggggggs
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I am so sorry to hear of your losses . Hugs . Unfortunately you are right about the unavoidable part and pray for it to never happen. I lost both my parents in 1999 my mother in January and my Father in December before Christmas . Not alone yet but being the youngest of 6 always kind of made me feel lonely . Huggggggggs I am sooo very sorry about your parents....both in the same yr. It changes life as you know it forever. Cherish those siblings for as long as you are able ~~ Huggsss !!
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i am sorry you feel orphaned. i lost my birth family to death and was adopted at five. i was really close to my dad. when he died i went through an 11 month clinical depression. i don't know why i didn't ask for help sooner. i was regularly seeing a psychiatrist. so i don't remember if i just didn't tell her how badly things were going... but it lifted. and i haven't had a crash until dealing with COVID isolation. i hope you can find friends to be your new family. and bask in your memories of love to blanket you when you feel alone. i don't know if you believe in such things but one day i did a reiki treatment... and my ancestral spirits contacted me to let me know they were gone from this plane but love me eternally. it makes being an orphan a bit less sad for me. Yes...this Covid sequester biz is not helping us to shake it off with other distractions /outings/events. This enhances the isolation/loneliness. I do have a wonderful crew of friends....but havent been hanging with them of late due to this virus thing. Ugh. i am sooooooo ready for it to be...gone !! lol One of those friends is a reikki practitioner too!! Thanks for your thoughts ~~
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10/11/2020 8:32 am |
Huggs thank you . M family lives in my heart so we are always together .
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I am so sorry for you. My family is just the four of us and in 1993 I lost my dad. We were not close but now it seems like my sister and I are getting there with, mom that is a different story now.. The Light is shinning and she is lonely and waiting in the darkness. 
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Ahhhhh......jules....your flux and my funk. Oh brother...we WILL make it out on the other side. Yes...we will. Im so sorry about your loss and the ensuing flux....but i also think we need to experience the bitter in order to enjoy the sweet. I dont think we can ever make sense or prepare for it....we just move on until the pain and the sense of it becomes less sharp. My motto has been .....a breath at a time.....and as i told you....be kind to yourself. If reaching out to family n friends helps....do it. The talking about it brings me tears....tears of the thought that no more memories will be made. So i tend to talk inwardly and cry privately. We re all doing the best we can , me thinks. Thanks for your words and support. I am sending them right backatcha~~
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I am so sorry for you. My family is just the four of us and in 1993 I lost my dad. We were not close but now it seems like my sister and I are getting there with, mom that is a different story now..
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I can feel your pain. Words cannot change what is, but I will leave you with a few to ponder. In every life some rain will fall, we should not allow it to become a flood which overwhelms us. Instead we should dwell on times when the sun shone brightly, in time it will shone again.
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I can feel your pain. Words cannot change what is, but I will leave you with a few to ponder. In every life some rain will fall, we should not allow it to become a flood which overwhelms us. Instead we should dwell on times when the sun shone brightly, in time it will shone again. Thanks for stopping by, thanks for saying and meaning what you said. Thats a rarity nowadays ....
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11/28/2020 11:23 am |
I understand where you are coming from. 2 of my 6 siblings are still around. Being the youngest always seems to turn you into an only child quickly. I am so sorry for your loses it is never easy but they will always be a part of you. Huggggs
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I understand where you are coming from. 2 of my 6 siblings are still around. Being the youngest always seems to turn you into an only child quickly. I am so sorry for your loses it is never easy but they will always be a part of you. Huggggs Family ( and those we deem fam) loss can change our world and our perspective forever ( sigh )~~
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11/29/2020 7:04 am |
I love when you stop by. Thank you !! Of all the things about this growing older chyt...its not the aching bones...or the funny eyes of night driving....to me its all about the loss of beings. The memories still reside in me...but....not being able to make more memories or ask them abt memories pains my soul. Im thankful for those memories but im not at the point of smiling about them. In the dark quiet night....or in the bathroom, shower or driving....i think....and then the water inevitably rolls from my eyes and down my cheeks. As soon as i think im about to recover, another one leaves. You have had to deal with the loss of siblings....ugh. Im so sorry.... Family ( and those we deem fam) loss can change our world and our perspective forever ( sigh )~~
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You have me teared up yet again. I long for them even so many years ago. I can see them in my mind and heart but alas it is never the same as having them there. I know the loss for sure. You touch my heart. I am not a hoarder but I collect things that have memories embedded so deeply in my heart. If you tried to remove them I would die because they are so much a part of me. Sending you sunshine and smiles and a time machine so you can see them again . That time machine, if i go back with the knowledge that i have today, i would put all my peeps in there and stay with them. ~
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11/30/2020 3:25 am |
I understand...i truly do. I have those same emotions and in this age of sequester, the usual things that i do to shake off those feelings have subsided. I would see friends , go hang out , listen to music, dance ,laugh etc. Now, its all more solitary ventures and usually outside. That time machine, if i go back with the knowledge that i have today, i would put all my peeps in there and stay with them. ~ 
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