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The Sunday Morning Post
The Sunday Morning Post It's been a peaceful weekend.... I sit on my couch, watching the new season of Ozark, and look around at my little house. It's a feeling.... Comfort. You just can't put a price on comfort. I dropped my phone on the cement floor of my office last week. Of course it broke because I didn't have it in a case nor did I have a screen protector on it.... But, it didn't really bother me because I think I may have paid $100 tops for it. I NEVER buy myself anything expensive.... I'm a single mom. There are SO many other things I need to worry about, having something fancy is not one of them. If given a choice between food in the fridge and a phone to show off, I choose food in the fridge. So, I found myself online looking for a replacement phone when I realized.... You know? It wouldn't really kill me to get a decent phone. As much as I love and miss the Mighty Marine, there was a significant amount of financial responsibility lifted from my shoulders when he left. It was at that point that I felt relief and guilt all rolled up into one. Relief at the thought that.... money that once went to pay his phone bill and put extra groceries in my fridge was now just sitting in my account. After having lived for years on a shoestring budget, I've gotten so good at it that it's just a way of life for me now. Guilt at the thought that.... This relief comes from losing my Mighty Marine. I found myself texting the Mighty Marine and telling him my plan. A plan that he was excited to hear about. "You deserve that Ma. You do everything for us." So, I did. I found myself buying an iPhone, not the latest and greatest, but current enough that it was expensive as shit. I'm surprised my heart palpitations didn't kill me as I was taking it out of the box..... Fortunately for me, I lived. Also fortunately for me, I was able to take the sim chip out of my old, broken phone and put it into the new, shiny model and I was once again, back in business. This time, however..... This time I will be using a phone case and a screen protector. I've longed for the day when I would feel comfort once again. It's been a really long time.... This morning, though.... This morning I wish, from the depths of my heart, that I wasn't doing it all alone. I miss having someone by my side. |
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How many times a day do you still catch yourself trying to Flip the phone Open to answer it or make a call ?? I still occasionally catch myself doing that with my phone 😖🤠
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Im glad you upgraded finally. I also don't need the latest model but like having a phone that can update the newest IOS. Simple things. Lol Oh and keep it on vibrate.
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I am happy for you that you decided to spurge on yourself. I can understand the feeling of comfort. I don't know if this will make any sense to you but I feel the comfort in my home but I don't. I think I know why and I'm working on it. I also understand missing having someone by your side. I think your such a wonderful woman that you will find that special person.
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There have been times in my life when I may have treated myself a lil too much too... I think we all go through it. You can easily justify a new car with the need for reliable transportation too and from work... But, do you 'really' need a new car? When the old one is still only a few years old? Probably not...
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I'm glad you can accept the good things that happen. It's always a good feeling.
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Im glad you upgraded finally. I also don't need the latest model but like having a phone that can update the newest IOS. Simple things. Lol Oh and keep it on vibrate. My name is MrWrong and I approved this comment
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I am happy for you that you decided to spurge on yourself. I can understand the feeling of comfort. I don't know if this will make any sense to you but I feel the comfort in my home but I don't. I think I know why and I'm working on it. I also understand missing having someone by your side. I think your such a wonderful woman that you will find that special person. We have two lives, and the second begins when we realise we have only one - Confucious
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I'm glad you can accept the good things that happen. It's always a good feeling.
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I do have a decent phone but not an i-Phone. I'd never use it enough to warrant buying one. You have no reason to feel guilty at all.
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I've been planning to upgrade my phone but kept putting it off. The phone I wanted was a very nice Samsung phone, just not one of the high dollar ones. Then we hit the end of the year....and 5G phones are now out. The $200 phone I was planning to get is no longer available because it's 4G. Now the cheapest phone they have is $700. That's a hell of a difference! But I may have to do it because they will be phasing out 4G phones over the next few years. I about had a heart attack when I saw the price of one of the phones my carrier sells....$1800! For a freakin phone!!! Prices are just insane for that kind of stuff... I hope you enjoy your new phone and have fun learning it!
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I've been planning to upgrade my phone but kept putting it off. The phone I wanted was a very nice Samsung phone, just not one of the high dollar ones. Then we hit the end of the year....and 5G phones are now out. The $200 phone I was planning to get is no longer available because it's 4G. Now the cheapest phone they have is $700. That's a hell of a difference! But I may have to do it because they will be phasing out 4G phones over the next few years. I about had a heart attack when I saw the price of one of the phones my carrier sells....$1800! For a freakin phone!!! Prices are just insane for that kind of stuff... I hope you enjoy your new phone and have fun learning it!
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I do have a decent phone but not an i-Phone. I'd never use it enough to warrant buying one. You have no reason to feel guilty at all.
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Glad you are realizing your worth!!!! It's time!!! Hugs
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It's good you are treating yourself with the money now going spare.
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It's good you are treating yourself with the money now going spare.
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I to never spend money on thing I know will brake or lose I had bought a new charger cord and with out my glasses on I push it in my phone it wou charger so the iPad sitting next to it and didn't charge. Then I got my glass on and it was the right charger I wound up crushing the pins in the phone and iPad now neither one I could charge. So off to the Verizon store 2 hour later walked out with the basic flip phoneand iPad. Yet the guy next to me was getting a 500.00 phone in blue the hot color this year. The next person want one phone that was not in shock and be 3 mouth before it come in. Some people have to have the late and best funnier every on the self is out dated wait5 for you to uy so after they bring out the next model. Sucker born every day and two to take.
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You do deserve it! I finally gave in and spent real money on a iPhone. Like you, it's not the latest and greatest, but it definitely set me back a pretty penny. It was hard, I felt guilty, but in the end....I'm glad I did it. After my phone screen shattering incident, I now have a screen protector on. Enjoy your purchase, it sure made a difference for me.
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Cool ! Enjoy your new purchase you more than deserve to spoil yourself a bit ! Being a parent is the most under rated job in the world and being a single parent is 10X tougher ! Any man that could win your heart would be so incredibly lucky !! Hope Love and Kindness will find you ! You Deserve it !
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Glad you are realizing your worth!!!! It's time!!! Hugs
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I to never spend money on thing I know will brake or lose I had bought a new charger cord and with out my glasses on I push it in my phone it wou charger so the iPad sitting next to it and didn't charge. Then I got my glass on and it was the right charger I wound up crushing the pins in the phone and iPad now neither one I could charge. So off to the Verizon store 2 hour later walked out with the basic flip phoneand iPad. Yet the guy next to me was getting a 500.00 phone in blue the hot color this year. The next person want one phone that was not in shock and be 3 mouth before it come in. Some people have to have the late and best funnier every on the self is out dated wait5 for you to uy so after they bring out the next model. Sucker born every day and two to take.
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self care is important! Making sure you have nice things counts <3
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You do deserve it! I finally gave in and spent real money on a iPhone. Like you, it's not the latest and greatest, but it definitely set me back a pretty penny. It was hard, I felt guilty, but in the end....I'm glad I did it. After my phone screen shattering incident, I now have a screen protector on. Enjoy your purchase, it sure made a difference for me. This week's HNW: Pink/Hearts (Or Chocolate) is available on the other side.
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Cool ! Enjoy your new purchase you more than deserve to spoil yourself a bit ! Being a parent is the most under rated job in the world and being a single parent is 10X tougher ! Any man that could win your heart would be so incredibly lucky !! Hope Love and Kindness will find you ! You Deserve it !
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It's been a peaceful weekend.... I sit on my couch, watching the new season of Ozark, and look around at my little house. It's a feeling.... Comfort. You just can't put a price on comfort. I dropped my phone on the cement floor of my office last week. Of course it broke because I didn't have it in a case nor did I have a screen protector on it.... But, it didn't really bother me because I think I may have paid $100 tops for it. I NEVER buy myself anything expensive.... I'm a single mom. There are SO many other things I need to worry about, having something fancy is not one of them. If given a choice between food in the fridge and a phone to show off, I choose food in the fridge. So, I found myself online looking for a replacement phone when I realized.... You know? It wouldn't really kill me to get a decent phone. As much as I love and miss the Mighty Marine, there was a significant amount of financial responsibility lifted from my shoulders when he left. It was at that point that I felt relief and guilt all rolled up into one. Relief at the thought that.... money that once went to pay his phone bill and put extra groceries in my fridge was now just sitting in my account. After having lived for years on a shoestring budget, I've gotten so good at it that it's just a way of life for me now. Guilt at the thought that.... This relief comes from losing my Mighty Marine. I found myself texting the Mighty Marine and telling him my plan. A plan that he was excited to hear about. "You deserve that Ma. You do everything for us." So, I did. I found myself buying an iPhone, not the latest and greatest, but current enough that it was expensive as shit. I'm surprised my heart palpitations didn't kill me as I was taking it out of the box..... Fortunately for me, I lived. Also fortunately for me, I was able to take the sim chip out of my old, broken phone and put it into the new, shiny model and I was once again, back in business. This time, however..... This time I will be using a phone case and a screen protector. I've longed for the day when I would feel comfort once again. It's been a really long time.... This morning, though.... This morning I wish, from the depths of my heart, that I wasn't doing it all alone. I miss having someone by my side.
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