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Damn it, Jennifer  

gymrat1974 49F  
1058 posts
2/2/2020 12:54 pm
Damn it, Jennifer

I hate myself for feeling this way
For wanting you to come back
For wasting my time on another pipe dream
I should have known better
I did know better
Indeed I wanted to resist you
But you wouldn’t let me
And I couldn’t let myself
Pretend that I wasn’t drawn to you
I couldn’t avoid you if I tried
It was a mere few hours of my life
So much life lived before
And after, too
Yet those moments with you play in my mind
Like an old favorite song
And I hate myself for this feeling of longing
Of wanting to see you again
And for what I don’t even know
Maybe to just create a few more memories
To sear in my brain
Or maybe to try again to make it matter as much to you as it did to me
But here I am again
Still thinking of you
And hating myself
For hoping and wanting and wishing and willing you to come back.

boobwhisperer69 61M  
8322 posts
2/2/2020 3:42 pm

 You are not alone with these feelings!!!


gymrat1974 replies on 2/2/2020 4:51 pm:
I feel like I am.

h4rry66 57M

2/2/2020 9:36 pm

 I'm always here if you need to use me beautiful. Just let me know x


justaguyinalaska 57M
879 posts
2/3/2020 9:03 am

 Yes, it is a lonely recovery from heartbreak. And one that does not have a predictable course or timeline. That said, my own experience is that harnessing energy and anguish and venting into writing and conversation both eases your mind and puts a wind at your back. Stay strong!


gymrat1974 49F  
557 posts
2/3/2020 10:04 am
    Quoting justaguyinalaska:
    Yes, it is a lonely recovery from heartbreak. And one that does not have a predictable course or timeline. That said, my own experience is that harnessing energy and anguish and venting into writing and conversation both eases your mind and puts a wind at your back. Stay strong!
Thank you for sharing your thoughts.


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