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Teasing or Torture
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Teasing or Torture When does teasing stop and torture begin? I believe in most relationships it has to do with intent. Several years ago I had a girlfriend that liked to tease me. She like to entice me and then tantalize me by saying no, but it was an insincere no. She liked to play, hard to get, but she would really love it when I kept pushing until she was hooked and then she became an in satiable minx in my hands. It took me a while to adjust my thinking to her philosophy, because I have always been respectful of a woman when she says no. It was the first time I had to discern an insincere no from an absolute no. It was worth it when I learned how to play her game. She absolutely loved sex with me, but she liked for me to play her little teasing game before she would release her inhibitions. It was an experience I will always cherish and one I will never forget. I have not had another relationship like that. That is what started me thinking about my current situation this morning. When does teasing become torture, whether it is intended or non-intended torture? I absolutely love people and especially women. The site of a woman's body turns me on regardless of her body size. I love slender women and average women and BBW's and even SSBBW's. I love small breasts, large breasts, firm breasts and soft breasts and even breast that sag due to either weight or age. I love small asses and well shaped round asses and also larger asses. I love long legs, short legs, small legs and large legs I love puffy pussies and non-puffy pussies, small tight pussies and larger pussies, naturally hairy pussies and shaved or trimmed pussies. I love it all. I do tend to like women with a little more meat on their bones than skinny women. I am a very large boned and large man and I fell like I'm gonna break a very small woman, lol. My wife was very small when we married. She was 5'5" and weighed 102 lbs. She developed into a true goddess. In her mid 20's to mid 30's she looked like she had just walked out of the pages of a Playboy magazine. Hell, some Playboy bunnies would have loved to look as good as her. As age does, she has gotten that extra padding in several places and gravity has taken its toll as it does on all of us. Hell, I remember when I was 34 years old, I weighed 269 lbs and had a 58 inch chest and a 34 inch waist. Now I still have a 56 inch chest, but the waist has blossomed to 52 inches and the weight is up a few pounds. Like I said, I am a large man with a large frame. Back to the subject. I still think my wife is the most gorgeous 70 year old woman I have ever seen. When she walks past me naked I want so much to pull her into my arms and kiss her all over and make mad passionate love to her and sometimes just fuck her brain out. She knows this because I am a hopeless romantic. However, I don't touch her. Not because I don't want to but because she doesn't want me to. She would push me away before I even got started. That is where the torture begins. It is total torture to live with someone, sleep with someone, constantly be with someone you want touch and feel and kiss and make love to and sometimes just fuck. So, in my opinion, the difference between teasing and torture is when the insincere no becomes an absolute no. Some who read this may wonder if we have talked about this. The answer is a great big YES! I continue to show her how much I desire her. I have begged her to talk to a doctor to determine if it is a physical or a mental problem to no avail. I have continually asked her what I am supposed to do as a man that has lost none of his libido with a woman who has absolutely none. Her answer is always, "I don't know." I have told her I don't want another woman. I want her to want me affectionately and sexually, but it does no good. I truly believe she would not blame me if I find someone who wants me as much as I want her, but, being a Christian, she cannot bring herself to just give me the green light. We have a wonderful friendship and love each other, but we absolutely don't have a good husband-wife relationship and I don't expect we ever will. Sorry if I have bored some who read this, but a blog is for you to express your thoughts, and that is what I am doing. That is why I say in my profile that I want someone who wants me as much as I want them. From my experience I have found that there are many women who are in the same type of relationship and don't want to change their status, but just want to add that part of their life that they are missing. Hell, I am also sure their are a lot of divorced, widowed, separated or single women that would love to have a man that wants them as bad as they want the man. |
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