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I Know I'm Going to Get Roasted For This Post
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I Know I'm Going to Get Roasted For This Post I know I'm going to get roasted by some people for this post. I also know I'm going to get comments telling me that they feel sorry for me and that things will get better. I don't care about the roastings and they will get better, but not until I learn to let go of some shit and find my emotional<b> manhood. </font></b>(I know where my physical is haha!) It sounds harsh to say it like that but maybe that's what I really need. Anyway here goes: I can't wait for Valentine's Day to be over! I want to get out of this little funk I get into every year since my ex left me. I really struggle with the time period between Christmas and Valentine's. It's like constant reminders that I had everything I wanted in life and then I lost it. Reminders that I'm single despite how much I being so. Let's look at the timeline shall we? Dec 25 Christmas Dec 31/Jan 1 New Year's (No to kiss at midnight) Jan 4 Ex's Birthday Jan 24 Our Anniversary Feb 9 My Bday Feb 14 Valentine's Day See? A lot happens in that time. And I know it's been 6 since she left and almost 6 since the divorce was final but I can't past it. Between the realization that she cheated (and still lies about it) the lies she told her co-workers (people I had to deal with on a daily basis too and they gossip like high hoolers) so they would sorry for her, the games she ed and they way she strung me along with false hope of saving our marriage, the divorce was pretty rough on me. I was in tears the entire day at court and she had the nerve to yell at me for it because "I was making the judge feel sorry for me" even though she brought her dad with her knowing he hated me. (BTW I know why he did and now that he realized she liked about me and sees who I really am we get along great) And it just hit me that this is the first time I've ever talked about this. I don't even diuss this with those closest to me. At least with them I won't get flamed for being a wuss and told to get over it. Instead I do this here were anything and everything is bound to be said. But don't hold back because I ed it out ahead of time. Let me have it. I've already accepted that I'm broken and that I'll never be the man I was before her. I picked up the pieces after it was d but a few of them still got lost. I'm at peace with that. So don't spare my feelings. I'm a big guy. I can handle it Speak the Truth, or make your peace some other way Follow CaptainDilfCT Superhero or pirate? You decide Sorry, I Was Thinking Again |
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 Fuck one of her friends, that should make you feel better.    
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you need to let go of her and the issues and move on...it is the only cure.
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I totally understand as some Holidays are difficult for me as well, and this is what blogging is about sharing your feelings!! Seduce the mind and see what a wonderful adventure the body will take you on.. 
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If it helps you then why not put it here? Of course some will have something to say negative. It's a sex site or whatever. As you know it's up to you to post about anything you want. I don't see the site taking down non sexual blogs and answers. Hope you feel better. I know what it is like to feel down. Humans are the most dangerous animals on earth. If only animals had the ability to know when to keep away from us humans they would be better off.
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