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Blogs > Do_u_wanna_kiss > My Life on AFF

I'm the one with the lonely smile  

Do_u_wanna_kiss 58F
168 posts
9/29/2013 5:43 pm
I'm the one with the lonely smile

I've been separated from my husband for more then 2 1/2 years now and it's been a long road. I have 3 , all teenagers, that live with him but I see them at least 3 days a week, sometimes more.

This is the first time in my life that I've ever lived alone and most of the time I hate it. I enjoy the freedom of coming and going when I please but the loneliness kills me. Sometimes even when I'm with my I still feel soo alone. They are my life but they can't fill the void that I feel.

I think that's why I come here. I think that's why almost every night I'm in IM. The conversations that I share with some of these men helps get me through the lonely nights. For the past week not even that helps me through. Italian #1 is ignoring me which I should be used to by now but it feels like Italian #2 is avoiding me also. I feel almost as alone as I did when my ex first left me.

I need to get past my two Italians but I don't know where to begin. I don't want to just throw myself at the men here because that will only make me feel worse in the long run. It won't solve anything. I need to rebuild an emotional wall and rebuild myself along the way. I know that most men are here looking for sex but some are here for the same reason I am as of late. The loneliness.

I'm friendly with two men in IM but I know they ultimately want more from me then I'm willing to give. I hate to feel like I'm leading them on but I enjoy talking to them both. I'd just like to come across someone who is more then happy just becoming friends. Nothing more. No stress, no pressure. I know there are some out there. Please, come and find me. I'm the one with the lonely smile.

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