Reset Password
Reset Link Sent
| Blogs > NJMale88 > Having Fun on AFF |
My Cheating Girlfriend - NJSexxy4u
|
My Cheating Girlfriend - NJSexxy4u I have been on Affairlook since 2005 and have met some fun women and couples. I kept seeing a few on an ongoing basis, but always on a no strings attached basis. NJSexxy4u the only exception. I met Michelle, NJSexxy4u, in January 2009, and we just clicked. I wasn't looking for anything besides a friend with benefits. She also lived around 50 miles from me, so meetings couldn't be on a very regular basis. We began meeting on a weekly basis, and by late February, both of us were just seeing each other. We enjoyed being with each other more than with our other partners. Sometime around February 2009, Michelle began an online friendship with Nicole Bertone aka Nikki, the female half of a couple from Staten Island, NY DoMySluttyWife I was aware of this, and didn't object to her meeting them. She told me that they had a lot in common, and would get along great once they met in person. Anyway, in early April 2009, I had a trip planned to Europe for two weeks. I told my girlfriend that we had no restrictions. We were both free to see other people as long as we told each other about it. Without my knowledge, Michelle and Nikki from Staten Island began talking about guys they had met, as well as experiences. One of the guys they talked about Brandon Zaleski Noregrets4484, from West Orange, NJ. I bet this idiot regrets meeting these two stupid whores. Michelle made plans with Brandon to go to the Staten Island home of Nikki and her husband George. The four of them met up in Staten Island without my knowledge. A few days later, as if meeting Nikki, George and Brandon wasn't enough, Michelle emailed another of Nikki's friends; an Australian guy from Manhattan named Morgan AussieMan0. They met in April without my knowledge. Remember, all she had to do tell me she wanted see other people while I was away. No big deal, right? She didn't say a word. In the meantime, I was an idiot in Europe, passing up fun times with some fine European women, thinking my girlfriend was doing the same in NJ. I come back to NJ and everything seemed fine. On April 30, I get a tip from someone that she did something while I away. I called her the next day, and asked her if she met anyone while I was away. She said that she didn't meet anyone. I told her she wasn't telling the truth. I told her things between us would end that moment unless she told me the truth. Eventually, she told me about meeting Morgan. I was angry and felt really betrayed. At first, she never admitted to meeting Nikki, George and Brandon. Guess she felt ashamed because they sound like real low lives. She asked me for a second chance and promised she would never keep things from me. I agreed to continue seeing her, but we argue more now. I tried to believe her, but I don't trust her the way I used to. I am trying to think less and less about what happened. But sometimes, I can't stop thinking about it. I hope as time goes by, I will put it behind me. I blame my girlfriend and that Nikki from Staten Island for what happened. Nikki made the introduction with Brandon and Morgan. That made it easier for them to meet. Everyone involved knew that I was Michelles boyfriend. None of them contacted me. They just crawled back under the rocks they live under. These are real sleazy people, and can't be trusted with girlfriends/wives or boyfriends/husbands. Real scum. I really regret meeting Michelle, I thought I in love with her, but she all about lies and betrayal. Michelle really hurt me, and writing this blog, exposing these scumbags, gave me some comfort. This lifestyle is about fun, not betrayal and hurting others. Nikki believed that what I didn't know wouldn't hurt me. I hope that her husband George takes advantage of Nikkii's philosophy, and is seeing other women without her knowledge. After all, Nikki is getting up there in age, and no amount of physical training will give her the body of an athletic 30 year old woman. THESE PEOPLE ARE REAL PIECES OF GARBAGE!!!! UPDATE: Michelle cheated with Brandon again in December 2011. When I found out, I cut everything off with Michelle. In early 2012, Michelle told me she was pregnant. We tried to reconcile for the sake of our daughters. Since 2013, I only see Michelle to pick up and drop off our daughters. Nothing else. |
|||
5/12/2009 4:05 pm |
I really appreciate your honest response. This has bothered me ever since I found out about it. She sent me the following email after I found out: i want to write my last blog; more to my boyfriend(not sure why he still wants to be that to me) because as he is aware, this is my last bit on Passion.com. I always thought to call someone a "boyfriend" when your 36 like me was stupid. I thought I was too old to have a boyfriend, so i would refer to men that i saw more than once as "my friend." You see, that was me, the girl who pretended to have no room in her heart for anything real. I was the NSA girl that can meet and fuck people i met online. I was tough, no "girlie" feelings to ruin what NSA stands for... plus i told myself I was just too busy to have anything like a relationship in my life anyway. I am a perfect Passion.com.member. Until I met my boyfriend. So, now i refer to him as my boyfriend. Because he is more than a friend that I have sex with, and by referring to him as "my friend" well, I'm selling him short. I'm sorry for that, as well as for a few more things. I will call myself an idiot later, but I also want to add a few more things I realized that I was. I was jaded, too. Jaded by past ex'es and an ex husband who ended up cheating on me. Cheating on me after I did so much for them, gave so much of myself to them, and they repayed me by banging any girl in a skirt (hell, they prob could of had a winter jacket on and they would of fucked them) but the end result was I got burned. So this tough girl who can have NSA sex had nothing to do with being strong, it was because I was tired of being burned; hence became jaded, and didnt realize the real reason I never wanted to get serious with someone. And all my NSA flings also left me desensitized with having sex with someone. Sex with deep feeling, that is. Because I was an idiot believing that I was a strong woman who was able to have this NSA sex, and not realizing that I had issues I wasn't dealing with, even though I had someone at this point in my life showing me nothing but GOOD, leads me to my second apology to my boyfriend. I'm sorry I cheated on you. I emailed men back, even though I wasn't supposed to be doing that, and I took it a step farther than that and met someone. Went through with it too. While he was away on a trip. Pretty shitty of me, huh? I am an asshole. You know what really sucked to me when he found out? It was seeing his heart beating hard under his shirt...of his hands a little shaky as he absorbed what I had done...It was knowing myself how that felt, but now I was the one who caused it. That grabbed me to the core seeing him go thru what I knew was the worst feeling in the world to go thru...to go thru being betrayed. He's giving me a chance thought. I don't know why. Even though I have forgiven many times myself, I don't feel like I deserve another chance. But i do know that I will never let him down again. I will never cause his heart to pound like that again, or to feel that he can't trust me ever again. I swear. Being on here is too much temptation, at least for me. I don't want to risk even trusting myself on a sex site. That's like having an alcoholic hold your beer. I'm no angel. I have to change the way I think; the way I see things. I have to undo years of programing I so successfully wired in my brain, and begin to like myself enough that I can be a "good girl." One that my boyfriend can be proud of. I'm not going to be on here, and god forbid, get in a fight with him down the road, and then use this site to meet someone because I validated it with an excuse to do it. I'm sorry, for gettin carried away on here, and I promise i will never hurt you like this again. I promise to treat you with respect, and I hope that one day you will look back on this second chance you have given me, and be thankful you did. If that ever happens, it means that I have indeed learned from this, baby. And njsexxy4u is history. I love you.
| ||
5/16/2009 4:10 pm |
TX, You have a valid point. She has shown me that she is willing and able to change. I believe she is more interested in a relationship with me, than having NSA sex with different men. She has cut off communications with previous lovers. She emailed AussieMan0 telling him that meeting him was a mistake, and that she is not interested in seeing him again. But she has shown me that she can and will change. Actions speak louder than words, and her recent actions have shown me that she does want to change. She betrayed me. She put in jeopardy our friendship/relationship. This is all true. I gave this careful thought, and I felt she deserved a second chance. Thanks for wishing me luck!
| ||
5/19/2009 6:51 am |
I'm ot going to get into a long explanation but I think personally u have to think about how you meet people and really trying to start a relationship with. If you have a partner that cheats or cheated on you, I don't think it matters how or where you met them. Don't you agree?
| ||
5/26/2009 1:09 pm |
TX, everything you say makes sense. She has been involved with cheaters in the past, and this has jaded her and warped her judgement. However, she is also very strong willed woman. If she decides she wants to be honest with me, she will. Because of this, I believe she won't cheat on me again. She knows that if she wants to see other people, she can just tell me about it. At this point, I believe she is happy with being with just me. The meet with AussieMan0 was a fluke, and I think it is very unlikely that she will repeat this mistake with him or anyone else. TX, if you are right, and she does betray my trust again, then I will completely disappear from her life, and move on. There are quite a few women both here and overseas that would love to be in her position with me, so moving on won't be very hard. TX, I hope you are wrong and that I'm right. Time will tell, and I'll update here on what is going on.
|
Become a member to create a blog
