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I'm Back!! Sorry about my absence the last week...seems I have been to alot of places that don't have high speed connections. And my home computer crashed and finally got repair this weekend. So now you know... What's been happening lately? Well I had a very nice couple of rendezvouses with a special lady. Worked alot. Went to a very nice city in another province. And prepared for my surgery tomorrow. Just minor stuff, nothing to worry about. Have thought of some really good blogs to write but can't remember them now, so I suggest you check back later and see what my warped mind has in store for you. Other than that I must say I missed this site a bit. I certainly missed the regulars who visit my blog and email me or comment. I think I have come to a bit of a crossroads in my life here. I have made some excellent friends and aquaintances here and those I will want to keep in contact with...but the whole sending emails to new people thing is getting a bit tired for me. I think I have met the people I want to meet, certainly a couple of you and that's all I want or need. Maybe I'm just satisfied with those around me...if I could manage to contact them some other way every day I think I would ditch this site. It is very peculiar in alot of ways. And I 'm not a big fan of peculiar. I can see someday not being here anymore and sticking with those I really like and want to be in contact with. To date I have met One Extremely fantastic person who I have had the extreme pleasure to be intimate with. I currently seem to have become a one lady man and that is pretty much ok with me. There have been others who have come and gone and while I appreciate the experience, the leaving was very unsatisfying. I have made a couple of far away friends who I cherish dearly and want to get to know better. One day I would even like to meet them in person...but the logistics of that could be difficult. In all I have learned that more is not always better. One or two fulfilling in person relationships is all I need and can handle. I have also decided that the one night stand thing is not for me. I really require a longer term committment to be satisfied. That may seem kinda strange for a guy, but I think I find the one night thing very shallow and I am NOT a shallow guy. I discovered this quite by accident. Had a one nighter and was quite upset when she told me she couldn't see me again. I still think about her and how great that night was...but she being forbidden fruit has caused me some very real pain. So why do that to yourself. I think that showed me that what I wanted was a deeper ongoing relationship and that usually is kinda exclusive. If it had worked out between us then I wouldn't have stayed on the site at all. So now when I think of whom I'm with today I see the value of the realtionship and parallel that to what I wanted initially. I was fooling myself to think I could be happy being a hound and run around with whoever, whenever, whereever. My personality type is pretty set and I enjoy the committment too much. I think that one day this will all be behind me if my wife ever wakes up, but who knows... But I do enjoy blogging. I get a real satisfaction out of it. I love the comments (well most of them) and enjoy hearing other peoples perspectives. To me blogging is a real release and a satisfying useof my time. |
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It's good to see you blogging again. I missed you this past week. I was getting worried. Good luck on the surgery. What surgery????? Hope you aren't out of commission too long. "Don't cry because it's over; smile because it happened." 
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