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Blogs > gsmiley6 > The life of Smiley

Help me understand, please.  

gsmiley6 64M
11 posts
3/19/2006 8:27 am

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12/12/2015 7:00 am
Help me understand, please.

I just thought I would put this out there to see if i can gain some understanding about ending relationships.
This past week my best friend/lover confessed to me that she needs a break from our relationship to answer questons in her mind as to her fantacies/desire to be in a gay relationship. We have never set a date to be married but she has a ring with my total commitment to her. We are both bisexual. We love sex with either men or women or so I thought. Now I'm leaning toward believing that she loves women more. In our talks she revealed that it is women that she sees with her eyes closed during sex. I'm not stupid nor was I dumb during our times together. We talked endlessly about our desires, needs. Long ago I could see the lie she was living trying so hard to be my lover/women. The most difficult thing has been to watch her fall in love with another woman yet hear her lies about it daily. Not just to me but to her self. part of me screams with pain but I know I must let her go. I must help her escape her lies. Help me understand, please.

bikerbabe57701 57F

3/19/2006 9:23 am

 I can't fully understand. But I recently lost a man I love, he went back to his wife...or so I assume since we've had no contact for a number of weeks. I know deep down I care about him and it's hard to let go, on the other hand I also know that he is her husband...and ultimately he probably belongs in her bed....not mine. The thing that hurts the worst...is knowing I still have deep feelings for him and will probably never be able to tell him.


angelofmercy5 66F
17879 posts
3/19/2006 9:56 am

 I know your pain. And even though I don't have answers for you, I know that you are worth more love and respect than she is giving you. If and when she decides to come back to you....demand that respect!


gsmiley6 64M
24 posts
3/19/2006 12:06 pm

 Thank you for your input and thoughts. I don't believe that her actions are intended to hurt me but are the steps she must take to find peace in her life about being gay.


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